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Wednesday, November 30, 2005
haha well , had polympics today.. won two matches, both singles and doubles.. didnt perspire alot as i expected, tmr there is training.. hope that i can improve my shots.. (well i'm still trying) :P
my flu is going no where.... nt getting any better bt yet not feeling worse or anything.. one by one my teamates down with flu, hope i didnt spread to them, first it was me, follow by li ling, now sally is down with flu and fever... oh jia lat nia,, oh ya!! congrats to sally for passing her driving, she shall be the official driver send us home after training WAHAHA *sadis laughter*
well well, before that i went to jun sing's house and entertain his nephew and niece, KAWAII NIA so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! buay tahan.. ! i become the part time baby sitter, bt it was pretty cool! maybe because erm...i had a brother bt...he is not normal.. and i always wonder how it is like to have a younger sibling to play with and to understand you.. :
i was still hurt by the ppl who still call my brother a retard.. idiot sia, he doesnt even look like one lor, wats their bloody problem??? totally not funny... saying my brother comes from a rubbish bin and looking like psychopath.. tmd...
okok better restrict my language... haiz, humans, their mouths are just so bloody itchy.. bad mouthing ppl for no particular reason.. SO WHAT I CANNOT SPEAK CHINESE! Stupid taxi driver... i nv forget that,, i feel so damn embarassed lor when li ling, wei yu, and xin yi hear that..
chinese cant speak mandrin.. SO WHAT!!?....bloody hell, if mandrin is so bloody great then WHY the hell are u a taxi driver? ? *grumbles*
okie complain shall end now.. tmr's a new day, a new "hope" and a boring.. new... day... EEEE I DONT LIKE F.C.S TUTORIAL.....!! *whines*
7:33 AM
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Monday, November 28, 2005
man my cough was really bad just now.. when i played singles with xiu ying... i cough so badly tat i could hardly breathe.. i was pretty afraid though. Thank God i was able to calm myself down and continue with the game.. we make a bet/ or should i say a promise.. that whoever wins will face tt jaclyn girl... not say that she is scarY or anything. she's just SO TALL AND TYCO! :X even if we lose , i wanna give her a hard time.. muahaha! well well polympics was a pretty disappointment to me because...... I WAIT SO LONG then still didnt play HARD CORE game... bt we still win ;D
it's like.. out of 5 matches, we must win at least 3, .. we won to this justin's team 3-2. the reason why we lose 2 points? because... our DEAR NSON is somewhere in malaysia.. better not be collecting durians... so it's a walk over, there is this guy gabriel who is suppose to substitude him bT DIDNT TURN UP! ROAR!! :X and last bt not least, our mens double lose.HOW TO LOSE SIA SO careless lor! not to say look down on them lar, bt tt one i bet my girls team can trash them under 5 lor.. really can vomit blood.. *puke *
okok i'm being so mean .... well alot of things happen today though.. see mention about badminton i talk so much crap already..
oh man wat am i going to do for the next few days? i'm going to die man~ at the rate i'm going.
train, match, train,match, train,match.
is it for the better? or for the worse..?
is it punishment? or is it a blessing?
i'm being a nasty person today... hurt shu hui's feeling just because i'm testing and playing with music video.. i'm so sorry... didnt mean to hurt you...
dunno what's wrong with me... i'm an idiot!!
first it was bernice..
now is shu hui...
i even hurt my bf for no reason
*tears* ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'M A SPINELESS FREAK
i'm a lousy friend...
sorry for everything
10:02 PM
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Friday, November 25, 2005
i've fallen ill, down with a bad flu.. just before the polympics... sux isnt it? to get everything screw up all at once? well... polympics, i thought i could get to see bernice participating.. guess i was wrong.. hmm do u think i'm too harsh with my words? haha bet you have no idea wat kind of crap i have said.. bt doesn't seem it's for the best, because i keep getting nightmares ever since that day.. maybe because of conscience, i dunno.. silly isn't it? ?
well tat's besides the point.. busy busy busy.. going to really be drowned by badminton ... trainings now changed to tues thurs and fri at ang mo kio sec sch.. 7 to 10pm.. nxt week, monday wed fri, and sat, have polympics, yet to be confirm though... man my day sucks..
watched a hell alot of animations to release stress . shiok arrR!!!! bt now no mood for anything... i feel so drowsy and sick...
body is weakening.. my mind is weaker.. going to collaspe soon..
aw man... why now ?!
i cant get up on my feet anymore..i'm so tired that i went down on my knees a few times on my way home from sch today.. i'm so exhausted from so many stuffs... i am tired of feeling worried i am tired of feeling guilty i am tired of so many stuffs...
then again.. i'm unwell so i'm bullshitting
tmr gonna read more manga to relax...
weak me,
MicH
8:16 PM
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Monday, November 21, 2005
look at my corrupted/ decayed foot.. stupid blister... thank goodness i can still compete in my badminton training against NYP. it's a DRAW :D hahah~! did i tell u my fingers were slammed hard onto the toilet door by a friend??? Yeow! nasty man,
okok so my blog is being very boring and pathetic, i'll try to smile i promise.. =D
12:32 PM
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it's been ages since i have last blog here..
well, things has gotten from bad to worse.. somehow or rather i just can't keep my mouth shut.. as a result i have hurt my love ones such as my family, my friends, u name it, i've already done it... wat the hell is wrong with me??? this sharp pain has return after for so long... it was so painful that i have to punch the wall again.. and again.. and again. i wanna yell out for help bt i believe it's pointless..
now i'm in the canteen stoning and blogging... just have too many things to think abt too many things to worry about,.. that i do not know where to start... i prayed asking god for mercy bt everyday life didnt seem to improve.. the whole world start to collaspe onto my head. u may think it's dramatic or i'm bullshitting around but it's pretty unbearable now..
now my love one has actually going to forsake christ.. the one who actually brought us together.. his faith is diminishing.. bt yet uncontrollable... i cant force him i'm trying to accept the fact
but the truth hurts
trying very hard to deal with it .. i dunno who i can turn to now..
aiyah in other words my life is pretty screwed up
i wish there is training today so tat i can torture myself to death bt sadly training is cancelled...
there's nth for me to do to release anger on
do i have to bring myself to smoke again? NO WAY i better not!
i guess suffer in silence and deal it all by myself ALONE.
why lord... why..
in misery
MicH
12:23 PM
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Wednesday, November 16, 2005
yes finally i'm blogging
physical training was really tough last friday. .to the extend i'm too tired to do anything... hahha getting as lazy as ever, sleeping 12 hours everyday when possible... well well. going to have a friendly match on thurs. JIA YOU GIRLS ! :D Show them what ngee ann got! :D had a really bad blister on the toes.. haiz sian half..oh yea let me see what else ... not much to complain now, brain pretty dead . oh yea!! NO MAPLE ahhhhhhhhhh... no chance to play...
hahah! today no sch!! no sch = SLP.. !!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
boring life boring life....
yawnzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
12:16 PM
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Tuesday, November 08, 2005
well well well i guess i have not blog for A PRETTY LONG TIME, sorry mannn
alot of things have been happening to the extend i just have no mood to complaining
my mind filled with nothing but "WaTever~~~"
to sum it up, school has started, badminton training from twice to thrice a week... homeworks rushing in like a HUGE WATERFALL..
oh yea, tmr i'm gonna celebrate with junsing his "advanced birthday"
gonna be reallll fun to plan that.. bt then again it's gonna make me wonder what's going to happen next year? hahaha ooooooo too soon too son ^^
oh yea, i started to play maple again... influence sia... now i'm level 31, WAssup!! spearman rox man!
alright alright no sense blog, will update in deeper details tmr onwards (if i have the mood of course)
in other words...... boring routine. every day.. every hour
except when i'm in jun sing's world
wahahha
the drug tat keeps me going --js
peace out!
MicH
PS: i'm so going to change that song.. i wonder where are all the decent music these days...
11:09 PM
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