Thursday, December 29, 2005

haha a long day for me,

down with flu and cough... bt had a great day for me, was surprised by jun sing TWICE with his presents.. AW sweet boy!! :D no words can describe that moment and feeling i had when he gave me the boquet of roses.. sorry ar i was pretty quiet cos i was realli loss for words..

had crystal jade food, yummmmmmy bt this time didnt had much appetite to eat.. lost weight le, if i am not wrong i lost 3 kg since i fell ill.. then yeah went to play pool and then went for training... got con lor, suppose to have friendly match in the end train with squash racquet... no mercy, physical all the way........ sia larrr -.-" now back home, feeling pretty tired , cos tmr i gotta study again



bt hmm wonderful birthday and xmas,

thanks to jun sing, dor, boon keat, and the church gang for spending the days with me :)


cheers~


MicH

7:29 AM
my thoughts ; nobody will understand

Sunday, December 18, 2005

another lonely sunday for me today...with bloodshot eyes, stoning in mass today... condition from bad to worse..although i tried my best to put a smile to everybody...bt deep down my heart can't stop crying... first i upset my friends.. now i have upset my mom,, she broke down today because i have neglected her.. i guess i'm a terrible being.. she even want me to get out of the house.. because me staying at home or not makes no difference, like a stranger in the house.. who does nt talk.. bt the thing is, im just so exhausted, mentally.. common tests are coming, ivp is coming too.. the late trainings... i need some time management lessons...


not being a wise guy/gal watever... i realli need to destress myself.. so..badminton, here i come, i'm going to give my all to the training .. i'm going to beat myself to it...


i wanna learn to be a better person.. not onli for my family, friends ,my love one...bt for myself..

i think i've been a jerk lately...

sorry to those out there who i have hurt without knowing... please be patient with me..



feeling so drained now...
see nothing but black and white
the nightmare is back to haunt me
the wicked voices in my head telling me wat a loser i am
i'm too weak to stand up for myself
i'm tired of fighting it back
i'll just let it burry me alive...



lord have mercy...




MicH

9:06 AM
my thoughts ; nobody will understand

Saturday, December 17, 2005

yea i know, long time no blog, busy with my tests and projects...
busy busy busy..

sch has ending and now common test is around the corner , xmas is around the corner too.. bt i dono why i dont feel the spirit of christmas, dorothy called me the grinch lar, duhz so pathetic

blog , i'm feeling troubled now.. i actually wanna say how wonderful things were durin holiday on ice and service today... however.. all i feel now is annoyed and disturbed

i believe after reading this particular blog i realise i'm too in detail.. so in conclusion..i just want my friends to be happy tts all.. just hope she know what is she doing..

ok tts it. i'm done

game over

8:08 AM
my thoughts ; nobody will understand

Friday, December 02, 2005

came back really late last night , training was horrible, i guess i was really off form since i'm down with a flu practically 1/3 of the girls are having the flu now.. tsk tsk . IVP tournament is also about to come.

here i am at the basketball court seeing my guy classmates play... so many tyco sia.. and of course my guy playing basketball too.. arghhh everybody end sch early end up at amk except me~~ RoaR! so bored.. have to wait till 5pm plus then head there...

have i told u all, i went back alone from amk to my house which is practically at jurong west? my goodness it's pretty scary, at 11 plus pm close to midnight u are in the bus alone.. and when u go up to the dover mrt station , absolutely nobody.. *shrugs* okie will write more later =)

cheers ~!

tired arr~~!! dont feel like going for training... =(

12:26 AM
my thoughts ; nobody will understand