Sunday, March 26, 2006

today is a confusing day... mentor is not around.. bt after having a chat with my mom and supervisor who also shared the same view as her,, life in workforce are not as pretty as i thought...it's a lil too gd to be true.. so i haev to be mroe cautious and not be so naive... have to give ppl a gd impression of me and work harder....


so far, not much work assigned to me.. i guess honey moon is over and i better do some serious work.

thanks js and liling for caring, i'll be alright =)
well enough slacking for now.. i better be on my toes and check out of hypocrites in this workforce.... it's too gd to be true when every single one is nice to me....



today's mood

*suspicious*

9:52 PM
my thoughts ; nobody will understand

Thursday, March 23, 2006

dunno what happen and what i'm doing..was traumatised when i see my grades. until today , i never ever score such bad grades... what has happen to me...totally affect my mood. i'm still puzzled what have i done that is wrong in my exams... oh my gosh.. two Ds in a row.. i never experience that before.. even ite i nv score sch low gpa..in trouble already.. i can honestly dont think about local university..

seems like everytime i try harder, my grades were worse.. *puzzled* nvm no need to console me.. need time to be alone..


Today's mood.. *disappointed*

4:27 PM
my thoughts ; nobody will understand

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

time is 856am, i had a very bad start... i dono bt i am really sure i upset my closest friend today... if she is reading it . i'm really sorry... i'll make sure it wont happen again.. lol i.. i'm ashamed of myself, once again, friends, if i have said any crap to you all without realising, i'm really sorry. that attitude of mine should nt be tolerated , and thank you for your patience.. i'll be a better person. although i'm still wondering, what are the hurtful words i have said to make ppl upset.. cos i could have sworn i wont say anything offensive...oh no..what have i done?

back to my four walls again..



today's mood *ashamed*

4:54 PM
my thoughts ; nobody will understand

Friday, March 17, 2006

Thank GOD it's FRIDAY! YIPPY!! a few more mins to knock off and i'mOUT OF HERE wahahah although it's pretty fun . :D wow the reading is killing me, i'm practially reading notes from a PHD u knwo PHD ? Permanent Head Damage? haha you tell me to read comic i can still tahan lar, bt BOOKS?! ho ho!! thats a tough one. ok so i wear specs now since i have to enter the clean room and googles are bad for your eyes... sia lar, ppl still say i'm better without specs -.-"" sorry ar girls are born to be vanity... as the old wise tale says "my face is my fortune"

hmmmm going to cut hair later though.. hahaha 4 mths nv cut hair already.. my bf say i look like a potianak.... T_T


sorry gals, i cant go with you all for ice skating..i got work to do.. aiyah!!!! sian half, maybe join you all for dinner after my attachment?? *winks*


hmm i realli need to go to church and have a really good chat..
there is something up my mind and heart that i want to do.. but it will hurt quite a few ppl

dont worry it's nothing serious.. just that i finally realise a path that i'm willing to risk and take..


bt is it worth it? hmmm *ponders*

dont worry!! i'm not going to be some terrorist and crash USA. hahaha


got told off by my mom that i'm being a door mat..


am i trying too hard to please everybody ?
will there be anyone who can accept me for who i am...?
will there be any friend who bother to call me to ask me how am i ?



today's mood *puzzled*

12:56 AM
my thoughts ; nobody will understand

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

thank you maggie for reading.. means alot haha i thought my blog is totally hopeless... well i'm trying to look at the brighter side of life.. gonna miss all of you gals,.. you all totally rox my life!! maybe that is why i'm feeling so bored when i cant get to go for training... the bond is really close man~~ take care of your knee k? *cheers*

nth much happen today though.. just that now i have to wear specs just to enter my workplace cos afraid that the acid will corrod my eyes........ yeoww!! and yea yea completely stoning lol! now my lap top is down.. hard disk crashed last night.. so i'm currently unavailable online. so got anything to complain? sms me and flood me haha!! there goes all my animations. no need to watch already haha, now it has taken my hands n eyes off maple and my animations... oh nooooooo so depriveddd *coma*

i wonder when is the next badminton outing.. i wanna chill with you all! hmmm *ponder*
for the first time i actually bother to read my homework and my past module books because i have really nth to do down here.. no projects.. it's like, even there is a check list for me to do, i'm very happy sia!! i have finally realise that slacking is a very difficult thing to do when you are working.. because you are not allowed to sleep in the office. not allowed to sleep in the canteen, practically not allowed to sleep anywhere!! EXCEPT!!!?!!! the toilet... my toilet my friend sia.. lol!! okkk lame joke lame joke...

i'm just so bored... thank you for listening to my crap...
wuu~~~~ if anyone see this, pls purchase for me a book call "101 ways to kill time in an office" PLEASEEE haha, i'm rotting hereeeeeeeeee

lalalalaala~~~!

gonna collect my specs tmr and my lap top under ICU unit.. oh nooo!!! money going down the drain....

i pray my dad will stop being a bum and find a job.. he is turning the whole house into a pig sty.. even my cats cant stand him.. sigh ...


today's mood *stoned*

12:46 AM
my thoughts ; nobody will understand

Monday, March 13, 2006

yes yes i know i havent blog for agessss i'm so sorry that i have not been updating...

quite alot of things have happen nowadays. currently i'm posted to chartered semiconductors ptd ltd for my attachment... yup yup exams are finally over over over!! muahahahaha i'm offically a year 3 student from 13 march onwards... so yar. currently on honey moon mood because i have absolutely nth to do and to the extend i'm blogging during my work now.. can you believe how boring this is? i actually bother to look into my email and start deleting it.. haha anyway now bringing in my coffee and drink so tat i wont end up sleeping in the office.. boring boring borinnngg


oh ya. last wed is awesome.. the badminton team and i celebrated 4 march babies lol de jin, shawn. liling and the one and talk crap guy tze xian lol!! my boyfriend and i were pretty sad though that nobody thank us for taking the trouble to buy such a big cake for them.. what to do what to do? mother's law have to be home before midnight.. i miss out all the fun you know... everytime i get to see my friend's blog or friendster i see the photos. i knew i was actually there but didnt get to tkae the photo.. i just miss the chance and didnt have a nice photo with them and yea i'm not inside... it was really saddening


have a tough life recently... if onli they knew.. i'm going through alot of shit nw... my dad was just retrenched.. no money , keep smoking and drinking.. okok which family doesnt have problems right? regardless how big and small a problem one feel... it's still a stupid problem which is unavoidable....

i begin to feel tat ive been irritating quite alot of people without realising... gals, guys, if i do say stupid dumb stuffs.. i sincerely apologise... it could be that i am just blabbering out shit without thinking , bt most likely is whenever i'm troubled i tend to talk crap...

wow wee this is the longest blog i ever write okok dont sleep rreading it hhaha i know i have alot alot alot of problems and i'm not talking about it... bt thank goodness i have my dear bf jun sing with me i know sometimes i neglected him bt i hope he knows he is someone i realli realli care alot...

maybe my life will be a bigger mess when i stand alone... great to haev a supporter like him around...


okok crap crap meeeeee tmr i sure write somemore if i can.. thanks for reading people do tag me haha okie this is mich signing out adios


MicH

9:43 PM
my thoughts ; nobody will understand