Destined to be left alone....or?

veryhurt..

2007-11-17T03:31:00.000-08:00

time. 730pm i rush home .. took a cab.. which makes me wait for like 30 frigging mins.. peak hour.. traffic jam.. run up the frigging stairs cos the frigging lift wont work.. wait for my dumb maid to open to door cos i dont have the fking key...

rush online and only to hear.. my bestie.. telling me. she cant be bothered anymore cos of what? TIME ZONE. i noe she hates waiting for me. but its beyond my reach! why am i tearing so badly...

i am even blogging again. so that's how hurt i am. ok quit whinning mich.

friendship is tearing apart cus of this fking time zone.. i wanna quit singtel ..
i.. hate being so far away. i hate .. for giving her a gift which actually spoilt and cos me 600 dollars.

i hate myself. for running a high fever and knock out by accident while talking to her.

oh crap.. im fking emo.. too many things running through my head. I DONT NEED PITY BY THE WAY. I JUST VENTING .. what a horrible nightmare. .. ..

omfg this hurts so bad.. why..

2007-03-18T06:13:00.000-07:00

wish someone who knew that i'm in pain

guess that is highly impossible since i hardly blog here..

i'm frigging lost

i dono where to go

Nayang Technological University? only the smart asses can go there

managment uni? - is it even my interest

work = can i even survive?

part time study - is it even worth it?!

ARGH FREAK MAN. screw singapore la!

boring

2007-01-29T12:01:00.000-08:00

Todays's mood = Bored..
class is such a bore now.

maybe it's the monday blues or something and not to mention it's been raining like mad throughout the past 3 days. so frigging cold and , i wana eat ice cream~!! T_T ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

now suppose to have lunch break but have no appetite to eat.....
got alot more reports to settle and can you believe it?! i got like, hell lots of things to do after my projects, like upcoming exams preparations, report writing, lab sheet submission. clear the lockers, blah blah and the lists goes on..
shrugss

what else happen today..
oh ya! check this out, can you believe this is actually a tree? remember, this is a gd lesson to learn. "drink too much water is unhealthy" :X *HINT*

now i'm off to slp.. ya correct, i'm slping on the desk during my 1 hr break. since my other half is busy lol! oh nooooo when she starts sch , it's going to be my turn waiting for her... uh ohhhhhhhh nooooooooo die, i think she has more patience than me.. :P jk! :P

Go Chibiis! ;)

big big sigh

2007-01-27T00:20:00.000-08:00

today's mood = disappointed :(

sigh. i was so excited going to sydney australia to find my buddies.. but to my dismay, the tour package is so frigging expensive! 1838 dollars per person for one week.. OMG. suicidal. and that includes like.. expenses? food? travelling money?
and for the first four days do nothing but travel.. my mom only wants to shop and goes to cultural places. well... that is what i thought of too.. but.. it seems like there is no such package ..

how unlucky. i cannot imagine spending 4 days in goldcoast.. i understood it takes 1 hr from goldcoast to darling harbour by flight. maybe thats the reason why it's so expensive.. but

the more i try to convince her, the more she might be reluctant to let me go..

i feel so bad.. cos i really look forward to meet them and hang out with them
bowling, pool, arcade, shopping, taking snap shots, visiting places of interests, eating, ice cream,

ahhhhhhhh dang!! wat's fantastic about singapore? blehhh!! >_<

*outkast* i must try to find another way ...

wishing..and hoping

2007-01-25T17:28:00.000-08:00

Wishing on a dream that seems far off
Hoping it will come today
Into the starlit night
Foolish dreamers turn their gaze
Waiting on a shooting star

But
What if that star is not to come?
Will their dreams fade to nothing?
When the horizons darkens most
We all need to believe there is hope

Is an angel watching closely over me?
Can there be a guiding light I've yet to see
I know my heart should guide me but
There's a hole within my soul

What will fill this emptiness inside of me?
Am I to be satisfied without knowing?
I wish is then for a chance to see
Now all I need
Is my star to come...

happy~!

2007-01-25T12:39:00.000-08:00

yippy!!!!! overrrrrr over!!!!!!!! well at least i can breathe a lil for now..

still have case study and tutorial test to go.. but what the heck! YAHOOO!!!!!! that sickening project is over!

it's overrrrrrrrr it's over!

i dont care i know i having a sore throat but i'm sooooooooooooo getting a icecream
pamper myself !

this is MicH Signing out! (for now) ^_^

judgement day

2007-01-25T09:30:00.000-08:00

Today's mood = Nervous

time 930pm, been waiting for half hour..very intense, project unstable.. it's like skating on thin ice, might fell into the ice water anytime..

ahh!! i cant stand it, i cant wait to get out of this mess~! i don't care! after this presentation =if it's a success ,i'm eating swenson icecream~!!!!

then again,tomorrow have tutorial test.. ARGHHH what a crazy week~!

a never ending nightmare

2007-01-24T14:48:00.000-08:00

Today's mood = Afraid

nv ending nightmare... tomorrow is judgement day, everybody including me have to wear formal attire to present the final review on thursday.

i feel terrible. afraid, tired, furious , devastated, lost, and many more.
it's like a crossroad to determine whether i'll pass or fail.

not a good feeling. especially when you know your project is working and it spoils at the wrong time.

sickening feeling. sickening project.

tonight going to stay up until 9pm wont be surprised that i will be stealing powersuppy to work even further past midnight.

i cannot believe i'm getting out of ngee ann soon.

soon i'm going to be independant.
part of me hates studying, anoter part of me cant bear to stop schooling. is this what life is all about?

oh yar! this you all gotta see! it is a picture of me and my buddy sansan played a 188 bpm finishing move.

complains

2007-01-23T01:37:00.000-08:00

hey there i'm back again

well project is been rather shitty lately, and i feel like drowning myself in a pail of water.

the teacher kind of gave a huge hint that, should our project didnt work out the way it shoot be, i'm so going to get fried..

sickening isnt it..

my friends whom i care abt are being jerks lately, ok fine watever i cant speak mandrin for nuts. u dont have to give such hurtful comments knowing that i am sensitive to it

bloody shit. sometimes their mouth ought to get rinse by bleach,

oh oh!! i remember now~ gotta download more animation for my new penpal sansan
man she's cute! never fail to amuse me, so, glad that things turn out for the better with her around

audition audition~ here i come!

love is in the air, most of my friends are getting lovey dovey.. actually i feel happy for them but at the same time.. i felt like... gee gee, things really have changed hasnt it?

i feel like i'm a desperate friend.. always wish there's someone out there who genuine cares and not just talk cock and bull story shit infront of me whenever they need help.

Geee. tonight show "the arena" is out! gotta watch it@ the way they argue is damn funny

z

2007-01-23T01:01:00.000-08:00

Dear diary

a new year, a new beginning.. but it seems all a deja vu..

as usual frustrated and i sux at letting out my anger.

alot of things has happen though maybe when i really have a time

i promise you i'll write out every lil detiail here. on wat has happen for the past few mths.

2006 is a big mess
hope 2007 will be better

somehow, i miss the days when i was younger.

OMG

2006-11-22T18:13:00.000-08:00

wat! 2 months?!! hahaha damn i must be really lazy to blog! well i been extremly busy lately, until i am going to be suffocated..

well, badminton tournament is over, common test coming, lots of assignment,
what can i say?

tio cheated, dono which bugger tell me year 3 slack... SLACK MY FOOT.

dumb MOE for tightening my months until like this, then once i graduate , the modules will be back to normal... #@$@$%%$#%#%#

ok enough of complains.. now in the project room cracking my head, project somehow finish but not yet.. dono la... if i say i want to get out of poly.. is partially true.. but then again

i think working life is much scarier.. working for another like.. 30 years?!! omg!!

humans are forever unsatisfied..

oh yea! ben and jerry's ice are fannnnnntastic!! i'm soooooo going to grab one !
+_+

oh yea what else..............
oh yea! if i can find any interesting post, i will post it up here
and before i forget

EMAIL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE i better start the habit of emailing things again

my inbox are like 1100 UNREAD. i dont even know how to start..

die.. i feel like deleting everything

who can start sending me nice mails so i can send out? hmmmmmmmmmmmm

today's mood = stoning

Judgemental

2006-09-24T03:10:00.000-07:00

i'm so not looking forward to sch. i'm so tired and drained, although i slp like a pig for 13hrs per day during the weekends.

maybe i'm afraid to face my fear, like obstacles or something.. fear of hurt too..
fear of disappointment..

seen too many disappointments... not disappointments from others but from me.

mom went to buy koreans show.. omg, it's damn boring . i rather study than to go through that movie.. bt anyway, as long she is happy. i hope the next movie/ sitcom will be much better compared to the previous.

today's mood ? = STONED

SCh is a bore
slack is a chore

oh whatever.

MicH

haha

2006-09-23T08:25:00.000-07:00

hey i'm back, i think i should start blogging again,wow i didnt know i have stop blogging for two months anyway thats besides the point

life is a bore now, mind's in the mess as usual, yup yup, well, the one thing i know that the pain is greater than usual, no where to turn to now, i hope typing out can make me feel better,, at least a lil..

napfa is coming too.. hope i can clear them... no intention to Ace.
sleepy mood now,

i have officially become a couch potato at home, because i do nth but slack.. guess gotta do some exercise after 530, go do some running.. "not jogging" R.U.N.N.I.N.G

maybe it's another alternative to clear my cloudy mind.

PSI 300.

oh ya

thoughts of today..

i realise humans are born to be greedy,
there are things even though the lil things god gave/ bless them
we will never be contented...

MicH

PAIN AR!

2006-07-03T19:29:00.000-07:00

OK complain time.. WAH LIAO MY THIGH HURTS LIKE @%#@$#@$@#$@# feel like i'm experiencing double pms cramps but in the thighs, like any moment i move my legs, my thigh will get sprained... and NTH to do with warm up. i'm a good girl i did my warm up =X

hmmmm eh how come everybody so anti social ar, chit chat leh, year 1 one side, year 2 another side.. where can like tt?? no need to shy la, must socialise and be lame together okokok?!

and let's see, i got HIT AGAIN! blueblack nia, and it's a hard one, i got smash at the front of the net.. YEOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you all like to give me love bite nia..

ok abt the qin nu chuan... liew my chinese not so condemm case arrrr all very cheeky suan me and victor.. bt how come victor like so happy de? *big shock*

oh noooooooooooooooooooooooo
oh yesss what else,, our shoes stink like shit right.. hahahaha tahan tahan so long bt dono why, my thigh still hurts more than my arms..

liling, get well soon!! faster come back play with meeeeeeeeee :P

oh yes what else do i miss?

ohhhh why do i sleep in the toilet?!! i bo bian!! at least sleep in sch the lecturer also wont scold...terrible niaaa painful experience..but i'm tooo sleepy. keep kotowing to the computer.... nobody chit chat with me.. so silent..

nothing nice happening into my life.. i think it's thanks to the pain thats why i am still awake..or else i would have doze off a long long long time ago..

ivy! your computer got alot of space or not? i will bring my external harddisk drive then transfer the whole 69 episode to you... ^_^

MicH

happy happy!

2006-06-26T19:30:00.000-07:00

wasuuuuppppppppppp!!!!!!

happy happy!!!!!!!!! get to meet my beloved juniors!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!

maggie and karen look so adorable today!! :X karen cheer up! you are doing great!! jia you!

hmmm where was i, oh ya! had training, omg, i overdrive nia!! playing games, suppose to base, i smash, suppose to lift i net, sorry woh!!

and ahhhh time was so short! i couldnt get the chance to have a hearty chat with all of you.. everybody in badminton has a cloudy rain on top of their face...

projects must be really shitty to you , especially deadlines huh, dun worry! badminton is fun right??? haha selene and maggie, throughout the game, we all cant stop laughing... !

bloody tyco! but tyco = skill!!! gd gd!!! must continue to be like tt, except for the laughing,, lol!!!

oh yes i got love bite from mun whye for smashing my forehead and almost go unconsious, THANK YOU ARRR all so sweet! i think i have a homing auto aim device somewhere, recently , i can name all the ppl who have hit me with the shuttle through the trainings

top 3 girls who give me love bite with the shuttle

SALLY NUMBER1 = ALWAYS smash my neck there.. i will shy one!
Selene number 2 =! dono what happen, like to aim my head and ahem chest
3rd, LILING = always aim head.. dono why... like testing whether hollow or nt and when she serves. AIYOYO, can also aim my head. DONO HOW sia lol!! jk relx! fun fun!
IVY! = this one funnny, my partner but when she smash, not over the net, aim my butt
Karen = also another one, partner aim partner.. will sad one u know..

the best is maggie la, so far i cant remember if she ever hit me or not
bt the rest I REMEMBER!!! lol

bt i had fun really! :) you all must mix mix chit chat with juniors, then make the whole team more happening okokk?? the fate of ivp rest in ur hands. muahahaha

i kee siao already, nothing to do at work.. writing rubbish

Cheers~!!!

MicH

what the

2006-06-25T19:43:00.000-07:00

oh no, i'm feeling so so tired by just looking at the com
but the good news is i get to upload all the photos that it has been dragging
for weeks and weeks!

and yes! photos of the time i took part in 8 ball pool competition

sia la, i feel bad yesterday, cus i didnt go to church at 1030 when i'm suppose to
i think it was really god's ans when he actually wake me up so early when i slept late like 4am cos i couldnt slp? and yet i still have the energy to get up
ON A SUNDAY omg!!

laming around as usual every week, squeezing my brain juice to think of how to elaborate in my weekly report and i been doing the same bloody old thing for weeks week weeks.

life's a bore, slacking is a chore, whatever.....

badminton tonight!! i hope i wouldnt be feeling so sleepy training...
yawn...

whatever i do, i'm nv good enough.. so when "enough"?

MicH

lala

2006-06-20T23:41:00.000-07:00

disclaimer?

[whatever i'm going to say now is going to be a bunch of crap.
because i'm bored at work and i have to pretend i'm doing something
i'm not lecturing, i'm not waking anybody up.
i'm just killing time.

if you find my words rather offensive. i apologise.
i'm just being me. ]

Here goes,

went to a friend's blog

saw the blog full of hatred and despair, and i'm here thinking wth? and to think last night i had the thought of humans are never satisfied..

saw another one, also in despair, feeling inferior.. and sia la,. i thought i should be the troubled one..

remember friends. you are who you are.. live with it.. better thank god you have a shelter on top of your head. food on the table, friends and family who loves you.

but what can i say? i'm human too.. and we are born in such a way we are never satisfieddddddddd

as my mom says. we are born in this world to face crap like this..
it's all pre-planned whether you like it or not.

i'm 21 years old.. i should get used to all the shit here.

i kept this for very long and i am going to vent it out.

i'm tired of the word.. "I SHOULDNT HAVE"

I'm VERY Sick of that phase

eg:

i shouldn't have bought these stuffs

i shouldn't have done that

i shouldn't been born

i shouldn't have come to ngee ann

i shouldn't have played too much

i shouldn't have work in attachment

i shouldn't have eat this

i shouldn't have waste my time

and all will reply me back this same word

WHAT DO YOU KNOW? YOU AINT ME .

well you are right ! i aint you, but for heaven sake, there is a certain limit when comes to pity.

i'll be there for someone who at least TRY to do something about it.

i wont give a SHIT to those who does nth but brag how sucky their life is.. because it's bloody obvious that life sux. so quit acting like a retard and blaming the world. it's pathetic..

ESPECIALLY YOU DAD !!!

ahhh i feel so much better already

MicH

sleepy

2006-06-20T23:17:00.000-07:00

done my work for this week. cannot beleve i'm still alive.
one more day! and i can reformat my lap top officially!

running out of ideas what to write in my weekly report because everyday i'm doing the same thing which are so bloody time consuming.

and yes! Last weekend we came in 2nd for 8 ball pool chartered competition
the story is rather ironic though. because i am suppose to be a reserve and i end up helping other opponents in their team and lead them to semi finals, i felt good though .. intially i was really disappointed because i want to be in the team and due to draw lots , i become reserve.

but who cares! still kick asses!!!

i admit, i kind of miss church. have not enter there for very very long..
what to do, nobody call me to go back.. i'm just waiting for God's sign to tell me i'm needed in church and i will commit myself again..

not that i should volunteerly help la, the thing is, i dunno which committee needs my help.. eg: look at choir.. sing so well, so organise.. i go there onli make things worse..

cat class? forget it ! i'll teach the ppl wrong things instead.
ssvp? hai, mommy also dun want to help due to our own family probs.. cos she has this believe..

cant even save ourselves how to save others..

i only know one thing that i miss

i miss my passion for music, i'm playing the piano again...
soon! soon!

i know there are some wondering what is project 626.. I aint telling!!
if it's a sucess, then i'll tell. cus the thign is..
the labour is very very very very time consuming, dun know whether it'll look nice

but stay tune!

well, thats the only interesting thing that has happen throughout this week.

ah! so close to the pool cue!! stupid nationals, have so many cue still want to be so greedy.

will upload the photos in friendster once i get the pictures. =)

POOL NOOBS!! :D

Alright

2006-06-14T18:09:00.000-07:00

alright! a more decent blogskin so that you all dont have to strain your eyes heh heh

someone lorrrr complain say so gross :P anyway, today going to have a great time! training pool for the competition on sat.. i wonder whether i end up being reserve cos i'm a girl.. well, better not pin high hopes too right?

cant wait for my lap top to finish downloading animation so that i can go reformat them .. or else my external hard disk drive become a white elephant..

lets see how many animations i have
i have -

Bleach - whole episode

Naruto

Kanon

Mahoraba

Fruits Basket

Tsubasa Chronicles

Ichigo 100%

Black Cat

Love Hina

Yakitate Japan

My Hime

Nanoha part 1

Nanoha lyrical A

Mahou Sensei Negima

Canvas 2

DearS

Journey to the west

Louie the Rune Soldier

and the list goes on.. i cant wait to watch Da Capo and Girls Bravo

although my hero like to say it is cartoon , hey hey it's ANIMATION . lol and it's a funny one! cant stop laughing! stress relieving :)

i need some rpg games to play.. any reccomendations ?? i think i have quit maple 100 percent , sick and tired of competiting. Maybei should go back to gunbound and trash the ah bengs and lians.. muahahah!!~

looking forward to meet my beloved ivp jrs! :) when is it ar? nobody update me lol

MicH

bad bad bad

2006-06-13T17:10:00.000-07:00

bad bad bad.. BAD!! vomited out my dinner again last night.. wow seem like a routine lately.. NOT! :P well, gd news i did nt eat spring rolls , the bad news, i have stiff neck and my whole back hurts like **** maggie ar i think i worse than you sia.. you train get aches, i nv train also can get aches. What are the odds sia,

ok lar suppose to go see doctor.. but then no point sia, i got alot alot of work to do. although it seems pretty easy to clear to the extend i can still go online and complain..

bt of course that is not the point.. the point is... it's BORING.. can you imagine reading nothing but datas for 9 hours? numbers and numbers... the same boring numbers for 3 mths.. woooOoOOOo their fonts are like font 7? in microsoft words? liao larr!

wish me luck in suriving the whole day in one piece ..

wow complaining so much in the morning.. i am getting the hang of it..
nevertheless, still being pushed around to do sai kang work.. bt oh well tats why i'm a TEMP..!

what do you think i'm lack of ar??
i slp at 12 am - wake up at 6, = tired.. (ok make sense cos i lack of slp)
i slp at 9pm - wake up at 630am = STILL TIRED ( how come still no improvement)

jia lat...

let's see.. tts my entry from 630am = 8pm entry

ha ha ha ha ha

remember ppl. SLACK is a CHORE :P

PS: man i cant stand ppl throwing to me last min things and ask me to create a miracle...

oh yea,, enjoy study while you can man.. or else welcome to the old bird club.. .you all one more year to go wohh *psycho psycho* then we can create
www.exnpbadminton.blogspot.com MUAHAHAHAHAHH :X

AIYA

2006-06-12T23:36:00.000-07:00

feeling really sian. getting sick of pleasing everybody .. then who is going to please me? wat the hell sia.. sickening life right?

for the better or for the worse, i end up being a door mat forever accomodating here and there, they think i'm some dumb robot with no feelings hey what the hell even machines need to change battery you know..you dumb mud..

almost almost almoooostt had gastric. vomited my dinner last night cos of overdosage of water, mom almost drown me with water water water, oh yea educational tip.. water is the best way to gain weight and lose weight. becauseeeeeee 1 litre of water = 1kg :X *BEEEP* LAME :X

ate 3 SPRING ROLLS TODAY liao lar!! RoaR!!!! got addicted, i need a sign to prevent me from eating that.. omg omg omgggg sinful food! mercy arr! must stop eating thats my sign... i quit the habt of drinking coffee , curry puff, instant noodles. very quickly. spring rolls very hard leh... nvm nvm i aim, from now onwards no more spring rolls, breakfast what so ever for me!!

water water water water... water waterrrrrrrrrrrrr !

skipping dinner anyway cos i'm damn shag from work.. i always act tough saying work is easy but i end up crawling towards the door and scream MOMMY!!!!!!

B.U.M B.U.M B.U.M

MicH

WELL

2006-06-11T23:29:00.000-07:00

well well well.. i should get this updated regularly ya?
thanks selene for giving me a wake up call and got me out of the demoralising stage...

and thanks to jun sing, ivy, karen for hearing me out.. ya i cant keep it in all these bull forever..
anyway that emotional barrier is gone now(sort of) , i should be back on my feet again .

thanks liling for caring too.. though i know you too have your own problems to handle.. may the tycology be with you.. *snigger*

work is a bore man! even you all are now training until your lungs are coming out of ur throat you all are having right? i'm like pa toring with the office computer lor,, i see it, it see me, for 9 hours.... ROAR.!!

IVY, MAGGIE you two shall be my reporter regarding world cup!!mwahahahah!!! hai what to do mommy dont let me stay up late at night, i'm like a beef cake la! slp at 830pm everynight lately...

let's see, blabbering alot of nonsense here, oh yar basically nth nasty happen, going to have a 8 ball pool competition at lavender . Company event.. so yea yawn yawn, can you imagine? 830AM to 11PM tats like almost 15 hours?!! woo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lucky my hero there to entertain me or else i'll be a corspe.

badminton badminton badminton tycology! remember girls, AIM WHITE TAPE! lol!!! white line also can! tyco is a heathly way of playing.. ^-^

ps:I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO EAT LILING'S CHOCOLATE MASHMELLOW AND IVY'S COOKING

HINT HINT... faster!!! feed me!! :P

MicH

tmd

2006-06-05T19:08:00.000-07:00

hey friends,
reason why i have nt been blogging much is because, i've been trying to figure out how to express my true feelings without much vulgarity, so it's been going through alot alot of censorship
if i were to be too vulgar , quite a few of my other friends will find me very crude.. but then again who cares right?
so i'm trying to do something stupid now.. replacing the word Fuck with the word PUPPY..

ok here goes,

stupid puppy, who does not know how to shut the puppy up all that puppy do is just is just say, i trying my best lar, realli~! i go through so many interviews, sure get job lar..
stupid mother puppy, onli noe how to upset mom with his puppy character, cos of his puppy attitude .Drink , smoke, show tantrum like some puppy. bloody hell.. get a puppy job lar, low salary also nvm, at least i dont see your puppy ass in the house, and create the house a havoc, stupid puppy keep hitting my brother, my brother did nth lor! just because my brohter is not normal you mther puppy take advantage of him, then all you do is make my mommy pay all the bills. you pathetic piece of shit...when mom is sick with cancer, your puppy ass is in america and can even dare to have the puppy cheek you come back later than usual, knowing mom go to op.. tmd You pest + unwanted sewage+ chimey... get the puppy out of my sight! i strongly detest you!!! i'm ashamed to be your daughter. cos you make me half a puppy.

MicH

what the hell?

2006-05-28T20:13:00.000-07:00

crises over! back to medium slack mode. i'm a slackaholic!! slack slack!!

and my dear jrs. WTH la! lao ma, lao niao all come out... so lao tu? (old fashion?) eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!

giving me the creeps already.. where got class?! lol!!! nvmmmm i bear with it... you all shall be next man in years to come.. muahahaha! then welcome to the club! :X
x men 3 was pretty disappointing.. da vinci is nice but, insulting..
over the hedge... coOolll !!

what's next on my movie list.. hmmm *ponders*
oh yar! GARFIELD 2!!!

ahhh i want to play badminton~~~!! hands very itchyy.. i'm quite tired of sticking my butt onto the office chair and stare at the same data screen for 9 hours..

somebody save~~~ m3!!!!

sigh

2006-05-17T18:56:00.000-07:00

troubled this morning because my hero was really moody the whole day..
it's scary.. but i dun blame him. at least i know the cause of it.. but sad to say
i don't know how to make him feel better..

what will you do when your love one/(for those who are single.. closest friend) is feeling extremly down?

leave him/her alone until he/she make the first move?
try to tell him/her that it's life and everybody faces it so they are not alone?
or.. life's a bitch.. live with it?

ran out of options.. i'm afraid to make matters worse..

bt i do not want this situation to become a quicksand..
you struggle, you sink.. you dont do anything, you will still sink..

sux.. i'm feeling so helpless now.

today's mood = afraid
MicH

ahhhh

2006-05-16T23:04:00.000-07:00

okay!! for the first time after 21 years, i actually went gu gu gaga over one particular toy.. well, my hero also went gugu gaga over it...

i've never been so addicted to such a character before....

my bf and i are those who never never ever! crave, wish, hope, for anything when birthday comes, or christmas is around the corner.. or when some ppl would want a roxy bag, a cool leather wallet, or maybe a pair of branded shoes..
here goes~ ! THE ONE. AND ONLY!

GIZMO GREMLIN!!!1 AHHHHH SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can dance and sing somemore

CUTER THAN MY CAT SIA! !!!!!

wahooooooooo

2006-05-14T17:50:00.000-07:00

gd morning!!!!

yup the only timei can blog peacefully is actually during my working hours, weird eh?nevetheless... steady lar! up up on your feet everybody! so happy that everyone (well tts what i assume la) have gain a lillllllllllll confidence :) you all really noe how to brighten up my day.. hahaha whoa.. np open is already on, so soon? i shall be the extra again and disturb al of you.. too bad no pongs pongs to cheer everyone of you.. JIA YOU !! :)

Ivy has done it again! nice blogskin! :) happening sia :) ahhh the temptation of going to coral island with you all~~! it's sure bound to clash with my final year project... as sally mentioned, old bird liao... wah piang ehhhhh just reach 3rd year already old bird *grumbles*

stay strong everybody!~ :)

PS: i think it's the coffee effect that gotten me blabbering rubbish.. cant wait to knock off... T_T

MicH

zz

2006-05-08T17:54:00.000-07:00

just realise , sally added me in np badminton blog.. lol

yesterday was actually a great day for me, cos i met up two of my bao beis, one is of course my hero, and the other is my beloved ivp juniors! i'm so happy to receive such a warm welcome by them.. though its a few mths , i feel like it's really a long long long timeee!! however, both of the ones i care for, are upset, my guy is upset and moody lately cos of his stress lvl.. my teamates are feeling upset due to inferior complex... i mean whoa??

felt helpless , seeing them trying hard to smile but i know they are feeling demoralise, both my hero and my teamates... if only they know .....i'm so proud of them.. karen caledl me big mama lar! shouldnt be mama, i feel so old hearing that.. i accept the word da jie, but u give tt title to sally.. lol! *roar!* well.. i'm happy to be junsing's gf . i'm happy to be captain of my team.. feel so warmth being with them.. okok you might find me mushy but it's the T.R.U.T.H , i shall find you all nxt monday for training... muahahahaha

anyway please stay strong! remember? united we stand, divided we fall... dont we have wonderful times together? gone through physical, footwork, matches, the emotional times, the physical times, i wonder why mag, liling, karen, ESP tt liling, wanna have ivp rejects, THEREI S NO SUCH THING AS REJECTS, i shall say it once and i shall say it again... it's thanks to everybody, ivy,karen, liling, maggie,sally, selene,weiyu,xinyi, xiuying. that the badminton team grew.. i believe the year 1s respect everyone of you. have faith please...

without you all, ngee ann ivp girls wont made it so far.please be positive, tt you represented sch and brought glory.. and we had fun right?? you are their seniors leh, nt old.. if you say you are old, then i wat ? one foot in the gravee... it's not as if you all nv represent sch before then year 1s come in carefare and take your place..

look at the medal . it's proof... solid proof. that each one of our efforts are in it. our sweat, our pain, the physical torture we had to go through, the journey to go to amk sec just to improve, "okok the fun part of hitting white tape is also fun right"? TYCOLOGY!! :D .. no battle of opposite sex, guys support girls durig ivp match against nanyang?

the team when i was year one, was NEVER like this... its every man for himself... total bull... T_T

admit the fact my dear friends, all of you are good , we are just playful tts why u dont see the 'star' quality in you.. i see them in everyone of you yesterday.. and i'm not being bias.. so what if the year ones are better than you? you are still their senior and through our hard work we made it from 2nd last to joint 3rd. ^_^

dont give up on your passion, it's not abt the competition anymore for now, it's the company and who we are with... imagine if maggie dnt go, will selene turn up?(sorry to use you as an example..) selene and maggie are a pair of chopsticks. cannot seperate them. :P anyway.. what if liling dont turn up? will karen have someone to tease and play with?

what about if sally dont turn up? when sally dont turn up, i am having attachment, whats going to happen? you all will have to guide (BY DEFAULT muahahaha ) our jrs and shall form the strong team...

if you all are lousy.. why is quan long having such a bad headache?? ,

do u know.. if all of you graduate, ngee ann ivp girls will fall??? it's a very very big worry,.. unaware right? tt was the discussion we had, i'm not sure if i am suppose to say bt i will say this... yes maybe there are some year ones might be pro, look pro,not so pro but you also think they are pro...(get what i mean can already) and whateverrrrrr :P but, if they have a bad attitude like jaclyn, how?? will the team survive???it is because of the strong bond we have with one another tts why we made it this far.. i'm worried abt freshies fitting in though.. i actually do like the year ones~ i'm pretty embarrass for not introducing myself to them..anyway that i besides the point..the thing is , i'm just looking at the worst case scenerio, of course i want the best for all of you :)... i love my teamates, all of you are just like my lil adorable sisters..

jia you!!!!!!!! =D

PS: and as for my boyfriend chua jun sing, i think i nag at you enough le muahahaha long story short, i love you :)
MicH

oh btw i might bull alot when i try to encourage, but it's out of gd intention.. must wake you all up abit.. haha

2006-05-04T01:45:00.000-07:00

bloody hell, i was being insulted because i amunable to speak chinese, haiz, cant speak chinese funny meh?

maybe i'm sensitive since i been hearing that factor ALOT OF TIMES, whine whine whine wat the heck. there is nothing wrong abt it okay!!

STEREOTYPERS!!

Siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

2006-04-27T17:23:00.000-07:00

wassupppppppppp finally i've cleared all my work load for the past few days.. it's tormenting!!! it's not that i'm uncapable of doing it... there's so much to do, so lil time!!

saw all my beloved juniors complaining about sch.. hahahah poor thing *tsk tsk* suddenly i miss those days where i slack in sch, slp in class, pretend i know what the lecturer is talking about.. lecturer doing the taipusan chanting ... the 2 hours break, playing pool, eat at bukit timah market, ho ho!!! and of course the most impt, BADMINTON!!!!!

oh yea, i have to go and reformat my laptop.. i wonder if any kind souls are willing to help me out?? i'm not entitled to have leave during attachment.. T_T

i am beginning to like http://youtube.com haha because i can watch animations online :X

oh yes what else do i miss?? hey hey~! when's the next makan/ badminton session? i try to make it after work.. wanna catch up with all of you on (updates+gossips+practically anything happening in school)

oh yarrrr and of course this important question..

LILING! how? any new shuai ge boy boy for you to grade?? you must have come up with a database with grade A to F right??? no need to kay siao arrrr tat one most impt list right right?
:P

Cheers~
MicH

:S

2006-04-25T05:56:00.000-07:00

Class 6E of 1997 Boon Lay Garden Primary school.. should able to see me though.. it was
her birthday.. A tribute to Miss Haslinda who departed this world on 18th April 2006..
We'll miss you lots...

Dearest Miss haslinda,

I was a foolish girl in primary 6, i actually couldnt stand you because all you do is yell and shoutin front of the whole school. I was someone who is lazy, has terrible handwriting, loud in class, someone with no manners . I bully guys, bt get bullied by girls, you hit me with the cane in class because of my rudeness. However, i realised.. you stood up for me when ppl steal things from me, you like my honesty as i didnt cheat in class.. you were patient with me in the nicest ways when we had remedial lessons, youtook the time to stay back with me to go through maths.

you make me into a better person. you make me realise that respecting ppl is impt. you remind me that violence will bring ppl no where. you are the only one who praised me when i did well in my english composition, you brought my stories into life and make it into an assignment and a learning lesson to everybody. iknew that because... iwas writing about myself when i was in primary six

there is so much i watn to tell you . i visited you every year for teacher's day. always grateful that you supported me when i went to normal acad stream.. through your motivation i forced myself to work hard and i went to express in sec 3. you scolded everybody for making fun of my chinese.. you make me who i am today. you laughed at all our jokes when we wished you happy birthday and happy teachers day

till today i even met you at swensons and i was so happy that you remembered me and you saw me changed into a nerd, rough, short haired girl who wears braces into someone respectable

i am really grateful that through your patience you nv give up on not only me but to everybody

today kai lin told me..

you left this world last tuesday 18 april 2006 with breast cancer

i was too shocked to react i almost fell onto my knees, i cant stop crying.. i almost collaspe...
why such a thing happen to such a nice lady like you? not to mentioned, i just saw you last month! there are so many things the gang and i wana say to you..

life is short.. and.. i'm missing you already...
once again, thank you for everything

we love you ~!

Love,
Michelle

lol

2006-04-19T20:56:00.000-07:00

wooooo

http://web.tickle.com/tests/memory/flash.jsp

Michelle, you remembered 78% of the information in the Memory Test.

But research shows there's a lot you can do to improve your memory. And if you do, it can help you function in more ways than you'd think. There are 6 main types of memory, which help us interpret and store different types of information. You scored highest in reading memory. That kind of memory allows you to interpret the meaning of a reading passage, and store a general sense of it for later use while you continue to read along. If interrupted, you're better able than others to recall what you've just read. This type of skill also makes it easier for you than others to remember specific facts and details that you pick up from reading. But this represents just one of the six categories of memory that keep your mind sharp and allow you to function every day. How well did you do in the other areas? How can you improve your memory to make life easier and keep your brain active? What does the way you process information say about you?

QUESTION OF THE DAY

2006-04-19T18:24:00.000-07:00

Question of the day~! no answer to this. unless it's really convincing i'll accept it

i have an indian muslim friend.
she claims, she cannot eat chinese vegetarian food because there is no sign saying it's halal

the catch: vegetarian? duh?? vege = no meat? no meat = not pig?

her defence = lard oil = pig, = religous beliefs therefore, cannot consume

then again lard oil = part of the pig = not vege?? = how can it be vegetarian in such a case

LONG story short... = is chinese vegetarian stalls halah? cos there's no meat involve??

tag me!~

MicH

work

2006-04-19T18:20:00.000-07:00

i'm feeling like a pig any soon

get up, work, home, sleep,
get up, work, home, sleep..

and the list goes on.....

can you imagine out of the total 9 hours of work.. you sit on the chair and stare at the com from 9-12, get up, go to the canteen, buy lunch which is probaby 5 - 10 mins , sit down again and eat until 1255pm, get up and go to work at 1pm. then you sit down and stare at the computer until 518 pm, get up, walk to the bus stop for 15 mins, sit down on the company bus again?

oh man! at tat rate all the fats are going down to my butt!!! i'm starting to feel heavy already

ARGH!!!!! this is worse being a couch potato , at least if you lie on your bed you are more balance?!! T_T shrugs!!!!!

i dont wnat to be a bum~~ not like this

Cheers,
MicH

argh i need to play some badminton!!

slackerism

2006-04-19T18:06:00.000-07:00

the ways to slackerism

hmmmm also not so true leh... i still feel i'm a lazy bumm haha oh no.. i'm doing test like nobody's business! -.-""

http://web.tickle.com/jumpto?test=slacker

Hey -- you're no slacker. You're just fronting. Lucky for you, you're not too uptight either. You've struck that wonderful balance between slacking off and keeping busy. It's not an easy task, so congratulations. Your efficiency and determination let you work in a timely manner. And that laid-back approach means that you'll never get too stressed out. Sometimes you're pulled in two different directions, but you know how to handle it. You can take control of a situation without strangling it. This healthy style of work will lead to both success and happiness. What more could you want?

sure or not!!

2006-04-19T17:54:00.000-07:00

hahahahhaah ROFL!!!
Tell me youre results about this test!!
it's SO nt true for me!! -.-"" took it twice and different ans, still get same results
T_T

http://web.tickle.com/jumpto?test=emoticonogt

Michelle, the emoticon that represents you best is the Winking Face

Well, hello there (wink, wink). Aren't you quite the flirt? Maybe you reserve your talents to the online realm where you can be somewhat anonymous and sly. Or maybe you're just great at turning on the charm virtually anywhere — online or off. Why shouldn't you?Flirting is an art, and when done well, it makes people feel good. Besides, it's fun and it seems to be something you're good at. Your clever comments and quick thinking make you a favorite friend. So, continue batting those eyelashes, winking that eye, and making others feel like a million bucks, hot stuff!

Are you sure?!!!

2006-04-19T00:36:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish
Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.
You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.
A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.
But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

http://www.blogthings.com/howboyishorgirlishareyouquiz/

yikes

2006-04-18T18:20:00.000-07:00

Michelle, your most unique quality is that you're unusually Agreeable

You believe that people are inherently good and tend to listen to your heart in important matters. You are gentle and have a sincere desire to help and trust others. You are straightforward but don't tend to brag about yourself or your lot in life. You're amenable to people's suggestions, and you are good at helping people realize their own talents, which only makes people like you more. Compared to others who are agreeable, you are unusually altruistic. Only 2.3% of all test takers have this unique combination of personality strengths.
While this says a lot about you, there is much more to you than this. The 5-Factor IPIP Personality Test measures you on 30 unique personality traits, backed by over 70 years of personality research. This enables us to provide you with the most thorough, in-depth personality assessment available to you.

http://web.tickle.com/jumpto?test=fivefactorogt

wooo~

2006-04-18T18:18:00.000-07:00

Michelle, your love personality type is ISFJ

About 7% of the U.S. population possesses the combination of traits that make up this personality type.Being an ISFJ, you can be the ultimate team player. This may be largely due to the deep and abiding loyalty you tend to exhibit toward the important people in your life. It can also be a result of the typical ISFJ philosophy that puts the needs of the group before your own desires. The bonds you share with people can run deep, so even those you don't see very often may be considered dear friends. Chances are, your loyalty and caring toward others is duly noted. It's no surprise that people naturally gravitate to such a warm spirit.In relationships, you appear to use both your head and your heart. It can pain you to see those close to you unhappy and you'll often go out of your way to take care of others. However in your case, being caring doesn't necessarily mean being gushy or overly sentimental. More often, you believe that your actions will simply speak for themselves

http://web.tickle.com/jumpto?test=lovetypeogt

wahhhh~! more to come ^_^

Ah ha! there we go

2006-04-16T20:24:00.000-07:00

okay!!! due to alot of complains from AHEM AHEm ahh chooo!!!! *censored censored* i've FINALLY changed my blogskin, it's something different and at least better than nth... so no complains arrrrrrr~! wait till i fnd a better one at home then i'll update further, so for now enjoy yourself!

first day of work,, gosh sian half!! killing time, wish i could pangya, or i could do something which kills time... better than staring at the computer and do nth.... straining me eyessssss roar!

ho ho! 24th april, going back to sch alreadyyyyyy~! hoho! suddenly i miss the sch food, CHARTERED FOOD CANNOT MAKE IT!! you tiao look like rubber you tiao, butter crossiant looked like they pump air inside... roti prata, which are soggy, ...... the air is still here... o wth?

beep beep **** ***!#!5^#$@ #$%#* %# @ beep~ and the list goes on and on you get the hint~

tak to me mannnnnn flood my testimonial friendster, flood the tag, sms me?! email me? anything!!

roar!

Cheers~

MicH

yooooo

2006-04-12T19:57:00.000-07:00

hah at work again.. hmmm let me see

oh yea!! been bombing quite a few friends' blogger and testimonial.. muahahahha sadis me

and yea yea! i've offically told mr thomas tan that the new captain will be Sally! i'm proud of them yup yup!!!

hmmm pulau ubin no need passport?! oh man! the deception!! the betrayal!! i should have gone!! means i can smuggle myself out there!! aiyahhhhh! oh well

li ling! maggie! training is gd for you! muahaha nt like me become some couch potato, cannot join you guys ... when sch starts are you all training in sch??? cos oops i better ask mr thomas tan which day the court is booked for us, OH NO!! dumb teacher everything always i have to take the initiative to find out.. erm anybody going for the sat badminton ? gotta need you all to be spy and pull them in.. and yes! do smth to the board to show tat ivp badminton is alive? haha! the fate of ivp team lies in your hands already =)

hmm felt pressurize last night.. cos my dad is jobless for 2 mths and my mom is supporting the family..i still dare not ask her how is the scanning ,, she been realli moody and keep scolding me out of the blue. wish i could say is menopause bt i feel pretty helpless.. major or minor prob is still a prob which every human being has to go through right? so yup yup feeling pretty emotional,, if i ever nv think before i speak , pls forgive me.. pretending to be happy is a tough thing to do nw for me.. she yelled at me saying not to spend so much money on unecesary stuffs but the thing is , i was actually saving, i hide my money somewhere else.. and i tried to starve so that i can save these money for her.. she just dnot appreciate wat i do... all she sees me as someone who spends uneccessary and spend on ppl bt nv thought of saving.. that is wrong wrong wrong!!!! bt i cant blame her, she is going through alot of pressure,

my dad is such a bum. cant he at least go for a temp job? at least there are income in the family, he king ar? asshole.. STOP SMOKING AND DRINKING LA ... get a life!! all you do is pressurize mom with all the bills... gd for nth !! trying is not gd enough ok.. all you do is make the house in a mess and find fault with everybody.. SELF pity.. !! then wat about me?? u think you are the onli one with the problem? it's because of YOU YOU YOU ! i get all the pressure cos i'm the only kid... i tried so hard to do things to make you all feel better in the end get shot in return..wats the use ? pointless!!

what can i do to tell you all that i love you. i love mom, dad, bro, grandma... but stop scolding me stop pressurizing me, stop finding fault with me!!!! just stop!!!
it's driving me crazy...!!!

Cheers

MicH

HAIYO

2006-04-10T23:29:00.000-07:00

oh my, time passes really fast and eeeek!! since work, it was so bad that i dont even know the date, i have not seen the sun for a month.. cos i wake up at 630am , go to work at 7+ and finish work at 530 to 6pm so . yup have nto seen the sun for so long

oh yea i was really happy to see my beloved ivp friends again,.. although they claim i pang seh la,, actually i didnt, its because i just dischage from the hostpial due to food poisoning, guess they are quite blur understanding the pain i'm going through.. stupid nurse, dunno how to jab, jab me like a guinea pig, ROAR! =P

wow i really regret missing the pulau ubin trip, argued with my mom over this, cos i heard u need a passport to enter? SHE HIDE IT... bt i dare not tell them my mom dont let me go because afraid they will say, wah lao michelle 21 years old already still so controlled... cannot make it la.. iknowi miss out alot of fun, seeing their blog and friendster full of happy moments pictures. and i just miss all the fun all over again.... glad i'm not forgotten but i really wanna build more memories with them before i graduate from poly.. they are the best bunch of gruop ever! really! the past was painful... i dono why but treat it as i'm "sway".

u knw the gang to me are just like a kite.... and i'm not letting them go, cos if i accidentally let it go, the whole gang will be flying away happily and not returning back...

okok u are right, i'm bullshitting around... WORK IS BORING.. and i'm doing the same thing for a month already... so yup yup sort of finish with my work and pretend to be hardworking for now... hmm let me see what did i miss out? *ponders*

alrighty!! if you all are hanging out ice skating again, PLS CALL ME, and make sure it's on a weekend, so hat i can join you all... yeah!!!

all the best in your upcoming trainings ahead, continue to work hard.. !

when is this scar going to fade away...
when will the problems be solved..?
will i be able to smile again..?

the optimist route = live with it and remember wonderful memories

the pessimist route = death.

peace!!

MicH

borrrrrring

2006-03-26T21:52:00.000-08:00

today is a confusing day... mentor is not around.. bt after having a chat with my mom and supervisor who also shared the same view as her,, life in workforce are not as pretty as i thought...it's a lil too gd to be true.. so i haev to be mroe cautious and not be so naive... have to give ppl a gd impression of me and work harder....

so far, not much work assigned to me.. i guess honey moon is over and i better do some serious work.

thanks js and liling for caring, i'll be alright =)
well enough slacking for now.. i better be on my toes and check out of hypocrites in this workforce.... it's too gd to be true when every single one is nice to me....

today's mood

*suspicious*

hai

2006-03-23T16:27:00.000-08:00

dunno what happen and what i'm doing..was traumatised when i see my grades. until today , i never ever score such bad grades... what has happen to me...totally affect my mood. i'm still puzzled what have i done that is wrong in my exams... oh my gosh.. two Ds in a row.. i never experience that before.. even ite i nv score sch low gpa..in trouble already.. i can honestly dont think about local university..

seems like everytime i try harder, my grades were worse.. *puzzled* nvm no need to console me.. need time to be alone..

Today's mood.. *disappointed*

tears

2006-03-22T16:54:00.000-08:00

time is 856am, i had a very bad start... i dono bt i am really sure i upset my closest friend today... if she is reading it . i'm really sorry... i'll make sure it wont happen again.. lol i.. i'm ashamed of myself, once again, friends, if i have said any crap to you all without realising, i'm really sorry. that attitude of mine should nt be tolerated , and thank you for your patience.. i'll be a better person. although i'm still wondering, what are the hurtful words i have said to make ppl upset.. cos i could have sworn i wont say anything offensive...oh no..what have i done?

back to my four walls again..

today's mood *ashamed*

TGIF

2006-03-17T00:56:00.000-08:00

Thank GOD it's FRIDAY! YIPPY!! a few more mins to knock off and i'mOUT OF HERE wahahah although it's pretty fun . :D wow the reading is killing me, i'm practially reading notes from a PHD u knwo PHD ? Permanent Head Damage? haha you tell me to read comic i can still tahan lar, bt BOOKS?! ho ho!! thats a tough one. ok so i wear specs now since i have to enter the clean room and googles are bad for your eyes... sia lar, ppl still say i'm better without specs -.-"" sorry ar girls are born to be vanity... as the old wise tale says "my face is my fortune"

hmmmm going to cut hair later though.. hahaha 4 mths nv cut hair already.. my bf say i look like a potianak.... T_T

sorry gals, i cant go with you all for ice skating..i got work to do.. aiyah!!!! sian half, maybe join you all for dinner after my attachment?? *winks*

hmm i realli need to go to church and have a really good chat..
there is something up my mind and heart that i want to do.. but it will hurt quite a few ppl

dont worry it's nothing serious.. just that i finally realise a path that i'm willing to risk and take..

bt is it worth it? hmmm *ponders*

dont worry!! i'm not going to be some terrorist and crash USA. hahaha

got told off by my mom that i'm being a door mat..

am i trying too hard to please everybody ?
will there be anyone who can accept me for who i am...?
will there be any friend who bother to call me to ask me how am i ?

today's mood *puzzled*

aiyooyoyoo

2006-03-15T00:46:00.000-08:00

thank you maggie for reading.. means alot haha i thought my blog is totally hopeless... well i'm trying to look at the brighter side of life.. gonna miss all of you gals,.. you all totally rox my life!! maybe that is why i'm feeling so bored when i cant get to go for training... the bond is really close man~~ take care of your knee k? *cheers*

nth much happen today though.. just that now i have to wear specs just to enter my workplace cos afraid that the acid will corrod my eyes........ yeoww!! and yea yea completely stoning lol! now my lap top is down.. hard disk crashed last night.. so i'm currently unavailable online. so got anything to complain? sms me and flood me haha!! there goes all my animations. no need to watch already haha, now it has taken my hands n eyes off maple and my animations... oh nooooooo so depriveddd *coma*

i wonder when is the next badminton outing.. i wanna chill with you all! hmmm *ponder*
for the first time i actually bother to read my homework and my past module books because i have really nth to do down here.. no projects.. it's like, even there is a check list for me to do, i'm very happy sia!! i have finally realise that slacking is a very difficult thing to do when you are working.. because you are not allowed to sleep in the office. not allowed to sleep in the canteen, practically not allowed to sleep anywhere!! EXCEPT!!!?!!! the toilet... my toilet my friend sia.. lol!! okkk lame joke lame joke...

i'm just so bored... thank you for listening to my crap...
wuu~~~~ if anyone see this, pls purchase for me a book call "101 ways to kill time in an office" PLEASEEE haha, i'm rotting hereeeeeeeeee

lalalalaala~~~!

gonna collect my specs tmr and my lap top under ICU unit.. oh nooo!!! money going down the drain....

i pray my dad will stop being a bum and find a job.. he is turning the whole house into a pig sty.. even my cats cant stand him.. sigh ...

today's mood *stoned*

2006-03-13T21:43:00.000-08:00

yes yes i know i havent blog for agessss i'm so sorry that i have not been updating...

quite alot of things have happen nowadays. currently i'm posted to chartered semiconductors ptd ltd for my attachment... yup yup exams are finally over over over!! muahahahaha i'm offically a year 3 student from 13 march onwards... so yar. currently on honey moon mood because i have absolutely nth to do and to the extend i'm blogging during my work now.. can you believe how boring this is? i actually bother to look into my email and start deleting it.. haha anyway now bringing in my coffee and drink so tat i wont end up sleeping in the office.. boring boring borinnngg

oh ya. last wed is awesome.. the badminton team and i celebrated 4 march babies lol de jin, shawn. liling and the one and talk crap guy tze xian lol!! my boyfriend and i were pretty sad though that nobody thank us for taking the trouble to buy such a big cake for them.. what to do what to do? mother's law have to be home before midnight.. i miss out all the fun you know... everytime i get to see my friend's blog or friendster i see the photos. i knew i was actually there but didnt get to tkae the photo.. i just miss the chance and didnt have a nice photo with them and yea i'm not inside... it was really saddening

have a tough life recently... if onli they knew.. i'm going through alot of shit nw... my dad was just retrenched.. no money , keep smoking and drinking.. okok which family doesnt have problems right? regardless how big and small a problem one feel... it's still a stupid problem which is unavoidable....

i begin to feel tat ive been irritating quite alot of people without realising... gals, guys, if i do say stupid dumb stuffs.. i sincerely apologise... it could be that i am just blabbering out shit without thinking , bt most likely is whenever i'm troubled i tend to talk crap...

wow wee this is the longest blog i ever write okok dont sleep rreading it hhaha i know i have alot alot alot of problems and i'm not talking about it... bt thank goodness i have my dear bf jun sing with me i know sometimes i neglected him bt i hope he knows he is someone i realli realli care alot...

maybe my life will be a bigger mess when i stand alone... great to haev a supporter like him around...

okok crap crap meeeeee tmr i sure write somemore if i can.. thanks for reading people do tag me haha okie this is mich signing out adios

MicH

aiyohh

2006-02-16T22:58:00.000-08:00

well well, did i forget to mention i had the best plus first valentine's day ever?!! hahahah

my dear is so sweettT!! he surprised me with 3 beautiful red roses! melt my heart onli..

oops lecturer is here, maybe i drop by more messages later

cya peeps!!

yuck

2006-02-15T07:17:00.000-08:00

today is a rotten day for me...

first i make my mom upset cos of my studies.. now i upset my dear dear .....

if onli i can make them happy...

i didnt mean to make them upset...am i realli this incompetent... tmr is test i no mood to study ...

i'm ost.... lost for words.. lost for actions.. i.. am confuse

rotten two days ahead,cos of exams YAWNZZ

wahhh hooo

2006-02-12T17:07:00.000-08:00

hahaha oops lon time didnt write so ar must change the blog abit

yup yup been happy since the day we gals receive our medals for ivp badminton joint third... an amazing achievement and it's all worth it.. taking such a long journey to ang mo kio sec sch and hou gang, and goin home midnight 3 times a week.. bt it was pretty cool... i'm realli happy with my teamates cos well, i kind of sux having girlfriends. kind of being bullied sooner or later.. hope we can hang out and spend more time with each other before i enter attachment! =D training wise, i gotta wait for mr thomas tan's responce then let u all know ya?! for now cheers!

9am in the morning now typin this msg to everybody! :D sian leh copying notes down. . .

wat else happen ar...? oh yea! had marche yesterday with my bf and leighton.. omg, heavy meal ar!! shot up to 70 plus dollars cos it's leighton's birthday.. our pocket kana burnt.. then i initially had 4 birthday partys to attend to, onli able to celebrate two..
wah by then i'm super exhausted., it's a miracle tat i actually survived....

realising ppl are there for me when i'm in a rotten moods makes me happy , and i do realise i'm not alone.. thanks to everyone of you! :) i feeling so much better already

okok more to come later when i reach home.
for now

IVP BADMINTON TEAM MATES ROX ON :D

piss off

2006-02-05T22:57:00.000-08:00

wat the hell wat the hell!!!!!!!!!!
hai want to be positive also cannot..
first my mpi screwed up i failed

then now is my bloody pdp troubleshooting sux
i dont give a shit anymore la, quit sch better lar, everything also cannot do well
wat for continue.. to think i used to be motivating other ppl, in the end i myself also cannot cope

shit shit shit!! gd lar later badminton game, lose lar, forever loser lar, wat's the use of working so hard, ppl slack still can do so well, screwed up world!

nv been angry for so long i'm at the peak already larr cannot control my vulgarity....

ah pissed lar pissed !!!!!!!! freaking pissed! why am i so freakin lousy! i'm a hopeless worm lar!

ass..

aiyo

2006-02-01T21:11:00.000-08:00

in sch now bloggin. have 2 hour breaks. very sian... honestly i have no mood to go for class today...... practically stoning the whole day lor... later got badminton at hougang somemore... omg so farrr and test yet undone... dono how to survive...

hmm i guess that's all for now and eeeek! i no chance to lvl up my character in maple *grumbles*

stone stone stoneeeee`~~~

oh yea i earn 10 dollars in black jack. HAHA ! :X funny arr..! from 1 dollar to 10 dollars, large profit sia.. oh yea wat else arr, today junsing's nephew aldan very cute!! now know how balance and walk already.... realli the main star.. oh yea i ate chinese cum western spegetti... WAH SPICY ARRR drink two glasses of wter to kill the taste T_T (hao failure woh)

okie signing out now...
will talk more crap nxt time, till then

cheers

MicH

sighzz

2006-01-31T08:09:00.000-08:00

happy new year to everybody!

yup yup get to eat alll the wonderful food.. oh my i sure gain weight at this rate..

actually i have tonsssssss of thins to say bt sadly i'm so tired i dont even know where to start

realli happy to hang out at sally's house for chinese new year.. i was still quiet dono wat to say though.. guess i'll have to try harder to be lamer lol!!

alot of sad things are happenin recently... like friends not appreaching wat i did (and i am not kiddin over this. not being sensitive)

okie la i got badly bullied today
bullied by my god bros, bullied by my mom teased by my friends over one sensitive issue... saw my friend discard a present i made for her. hmmm alot of bad things

bt thannk god i have three wonderful group of ppl

1) my family
2) my badminton kahkee friends/classmates
3) my 1 and onli 1 junsing :)

to you know who..i need u the most at this time..if i'm being bitchy or unreasonable please forgive me.. for i'm dillema ... please catch me when i fall... (Silence) *tears*

gong xi fai cai!!

2006-01-28T08:08:00.000-08:00

ho ho! happy chinese new year everybody!!!! :D may u all get lots of luck and lots of ang bao!! gd luck in ur investment ya!?!!

chinese new year has finally come!! have to admit this year is one year i wont wana miss! this is the first time i'm goin to be introduce to junsing's relative!! actually to tell u the truth i'm realli realli nervous cos impression comes first! have to be at my best behaviour.. i guess some how or rather he is angry with me for being so chicken -.-" sorry dear...

well well back to chinese new year.. my mom dont allow me to eat chicken for cny!! ahhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! deprived depriveddddddd ! oh well, i hope my cough gets well soon..

oh yea!!! i loveeeeeeee jacks place!! thanks dear for bringin me there. damn cool!! :D although it burn a hole in ur pocket.. hehe nvm nvm investment coming back later..

sigh suffering from love sick and badminton sick..... >_<

i wonder if the girls wanna chill out at my house this coming tuesday, guess it's pretty too last min.. oh well! once again, gong xi fa cai everybody :)

Cheers,!
MicH loves DaviD

ps: i sux at gambling man so i'm not going to "invest" on anything muahahaha :X
man i'm crazy

wahhhhhh hoo!

2006-01-26T01:05:00.000-08:00

yup yup in class now slacking.. pretty nervous though,tmr is my mpi lab test... sia larrr 8am in themorning have to go to sch to do...... very very sian arrr

oh yea!! the girls win against sp 3-2, we are going into semi finals!! yeah1!!!!!!!! cool sia! way to go girls!! :D so happy for all of u... great effort nia!! hmm went to macs after the game.. this ivy arr keep throwing ice at the guys... lol cheeky lil girl i actually wanna join in the fun bt i dono how lol!! hai i feel so bad not being able to compete i mean i work as hard as the girls and i get myself unwell and not being able to perform.. sian halfffffff i promise i will get well asap and we shall try to win TP!! heheheh big dream big dream! top 4 already very gd le!! :D

yea yea due to someone complaining ihave not been blogging much... pai seh nia, down with terrible cough.. no mood to blog... so yeap yeap will try to update more frequentlyy

chinese new year is around the corner...woooooooooo hong bao lai lai lai!!
today is a gd day!! :) i hope i can do well in my lab test tommorrow.. and the day will be alllllllll over! :D

okie tats all for today and yesterday...'

oh yea go and watch memors of gesha.. .sad story :D pretty cool too :D

sian

2006-01-17T06:20:00.000-08:00

well what can i say? been raining heavily for the past few weeks... my cold didnt get any better, infact it has gotten worse... sian half.. 2 days mc.. , not allowed to play badminton. feeling alil frustrated... well my dear came to take care of me today though hehee...

i'm kind of afraid of this fri's mpi lab test... first i failed the common test by TWO Miserable marks... -.-" not onli that.. i admit, i sux at mpi.. really have no confidence...

is running away for more time a better solution? or to struggle the paper instead? screwed up my common tests papers thsi semester, dunno wats wrong with me lately..

i realli need to buck up.. i wanna be well again..TIRED ARRR~~~~~~~ so so so tired.....

ok completely in a mess now.. .bullshitting around... boring arrrrr!

bad

2006-01-10T07:47:00.000-08:00

common tests are finally over, bt my worries has just begun , lab tests and competition are around the corner, that is going to drain out alot of energy, however........ since tt is the onli sport i'm confident in, i hope i can give ppl a gd show to watch.. :)

very happy tat alot of ppl turn up at hougang sports hall for training, wasnt tat tedious bt at least we had lots of fun !! bt aiyah raining nia, so horrijible... then i cant go out with my guy to buy hard disk drive...nvm! there's always maple and tmr. wahahaha!

yea i should try to update more ya? been neglecting the blog abit.. just tt aiyah so many things happen in such a short time...

jia you girls!! may we suceed in the up coming match! i have faith in all of ya! :D

yippy

2006-01-02T05:23:00.000-08:00

the sweestest gift i ever receive , from my beloved darling junsing!
lovingggggg u!!! heeeheee :D

the photo which puts a bg smile on my face when i'm down..

why ...

2006-01-02T05:09:00.000-08:00

2nd day of the year 2006... nothing to be happy abt... went with my dear to aaron's house, wah his mom, young nia.. dont look like a mother of three.. actually wanted to lay mahjong bt i was pretty troubled with studies, bt of course i am most worried for is my guy... down with fever and cough and flu... i'm so so worried... hope he gets well soon.. praying for him everynight that he has the strength and confidence.. if onli i am smarter i would love to teach him, sadly i cant even save myself i even need him to help me with my mcte.. he's just so clever.. i wonder what make him so demoralised..

well hope he will get well soon, miss ya lots...

well .. the day doesnt get any better... u know my mom told me if there are alot of troubles after a certain incident. it was nv meant to be? just like when i want to get a certain handphone , shop nonstop and nv et the price we want and the model.. maybe tts call fate or wat i believe in.. God's will.. i'm not preaching anyway...

let me ask you something...

which comes first?
ur happiness , or the happiness for ur love ones u care for, however by doing so u get hurt instead?

pai seh, talking crap again..

my onli wish ..i want my dear jun sing to be happy, confident and smiling again... cheesy! i wanna make u the happiest guy on earth, !! :D

crap shit

2006-01-01T06:19:00.000-08:00

in a mess now...i want to make everyone happy bt it seems that all i do is make everyone upset... i cant sleep, i cant eat..i cant study... i wanted js to be happy and it seems i onli make things worse for everybody..

i'm sorry i cant be perfect.. i'm sorry for everything..

i'll be better next time, please be patient with me..

badminton here i come..

BDAY

2005-12-29T07:29:00.000-08:00

haha a long day for me,

down with flu and cough... bt had a great day for me, was surprised by jun sing TWICE with his presents.. AW sweet boy!! :D no words can describe that moment and feeling i had when he gave me the boquet of roses.. sorry ar i was pretty quiet cos i was realli loss for words..

had crystal jade food, yummmmmmy bt this time didnt had much appetite to eat.. lost weight le, if i am not wrong i lost 3 kg since i fell ill.. then yeah went to play pool and then went for training... got con lor, suppose to have friendly match in the end train with squash racquet... no mercy, physical all the way........ sia larrr -.-" now back home, feeling pretty tired , cos tmr i gotta study again

bt hmm wonderful birthday and xmas,

thanks to jun sing, dor, boon keat, and the church gang for spending the days with me :)

cheers~

MicH

hai

2005-12-18T09:06:00.000-08:00

another lonely sunday for me today...with bloodshot eyes, stoning in mass today... condition from bad to worse..although i tried my best to put a smile to everybody...bt deep down my heart can't stop crying... first i upset my friends.. now i have upset my mom,, she broke down today because i have neglected her.. i guess i'm a terrible being.. she even want me to get out of the house.. because me staying at home or not makes no difference, like a stranger in the house.. who does nt talk.. bt the thing is, im just so exhausted, mentally.. common tests are coming, ivp is coming too.. the late trainings... i need some time management lessons...

not being a wise guy/gal watever... i realli need to destress myself.. so..badminton, here i come, i'm going to give my all to the training .. i'm going to beat myself to it...

i wanna learn to be a better person.. not onli for my family, friends ,my love one...bt for myself..

i think i've been a jerk lately...

sorry to those out there who i have hurt without knowing... please be patient with me..

feeling so drained now...
see nothing but black and white
the nightmare is back to haunt me
the wicked voices in my head telling me wat a loser i am
i'm too weak to stand up for myself
i'm tired of fighting it back
i'll just let it burry me alive...

lord have mercy...

MicH

wat the hell

2005-12-17T08:08:00.000-08:00

yea i know, long time no blog, busy with my tests and projects...
busy busy busy..

sch has ending and now common test is around the corner , xmas is around the corner too.. bt i dono why i dont feel the spirit of christmas, dorothy called me the grinch lar, duhz so pathetic

blog , i'm feeling troubled now.. i actually wanna say how wonderful things were durin holiday on ice and service today... however.. all i feel now is annoyed and disturbed

i believe after reading this particular blog i realise i'm too in detail.. so in conclusion..i just want my friends to be happy tts all.. just hope she know what is she doing..

ok tts it. i'm done

game over

sigh

2005-12-02T00:26:00.000-08:00

came back really late last night , training was horrible, i guess i was really off form since i'm down with a flu practically 1/3 of the girls are having the flu now.. tsk tsk . IVP tournament is also about to come.

here i am at the basketball court seeing my guy classmates play... so many tyco sia.. and of course my guy playing basketball too.. arghhh everybody end sch early end up at amk except me~~ RoaR! so bored.. have to wait till 5pm plus then head there...

have i told u all, i went back alone from amk to my house which is practically at jurong west? my goodness it's pretty scary, at 11 plus pm close to midnight u are in the bus alone.. and when u go up to the dover mrt station , absolutely nobody.. *shrugs* okie will write more later =)

cheers ~!

tired arr~~!! dont feel like going for training... =(

uh oh

2005-11-30T07:33:00.000-08:00

haha well , had polympics today.. won two matches, both singles and doubles.. didnt perspire alot as i expected, tmr there is training.. hope that i can improve my shots.. (well i'm still trying) :P

my flu is going no where.... nt getting any better bt yet not feeling worse or anything.. one by one my teamates down with flu, hope i didnt spread to them, first it was me, follow by li ling, now sally is down with flu and fever... oh jia lat nia,, oh ya!! congrats to sally for passing her driving, she shall be the official driver send us home after training WAHAHA *sadis laughter*

well well, before that i went to jun sing's house and entertain his nephew and niece, KAWAII NIA so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! buay tahan.. ! i become the part time baby sitter, bt it was pretty cool! maybe because erm...i had a brother bt...he is not normal.. and i always wonder how it is like to have a younger sibling to play with and to understand you.. :
i was still hurt by the ppl who still call my brother a retard.. idiot sia, he doesnt even look like one lor, wats their bloody problem??? totally not funny... saying my brother comes from a rubbish bin and looking like psychopath.. tmd...

okok better restrict my language... haiz, humans, their mouths are just so bloody itchy.. bad mouthing ppl for no particular reason.. SO WHAT I CANNOT SPEAK CHINESE! Stupid taxi driver... i nv forget that,, i feel so damn embarassed lor when li ling, wei yu, and xin yi hear that..

chinese cant speak mandrin.. SO WHAT!!?....bloody hell, if mandrin is so bloody great then WHY the hell are u a taxi driver? ? *grumbles*

okie complain shall end now.. tmr's a new day, a new "hope" and a boring.. new... day... EEEE I DONT LIKE F.C.S TUTORIAL.....!! *whines*

hurts

2005-11-28T22:02:00.000-08:00

man my cough was really bad just now.. when i played singles with xiu ying... i cough so badly tat i could hardly breathe.. i was pretty afraid though. Thank God i was able to calm myself down and continue with the game.. we make a bet/ or should i say a promise.. that whoever wins will face tt jaclyn girl... not say that she is scarY or anything. she's just SO TALL AND TYCO! :X even if we lose , i wanna give her a hard time.. muahaha! well well polympics was a pretty disappointment to me because...... I WAIT SO LONG then still didnt play HARD CORE game... bt we still win ;D

it's like.. out of 5 matches, we must win at least 3, .. we won to this justin's team 3-2. the reason why we lose 2 points? because... our DEAR NSON is somewhere in malaysia.. better not be collecting durians... so it's a walk over, there is this guy gabriel who is suppose to substitude him bT DIDNT TURN UP! ROAR!! :X and last bt not least, our mens double lose.HOW TO LOSE SIA SO careless lor! not to say look down on them lar, bt tt one i bet my girls team can trash them under 5 lor.. really can vomit blood.. *puke *

okok i'm being so mean .... well alot of things happen today though.. see mention about badminton i talk so much crap already..

oh man wat am i going to do for the next few days? i'm going to die man~ at the rate i'm going.
train, match, train,match, train,match.

is it for the better? or for the worse..?

is it punishment? or is it a blessing?

i'm being a nasty person today... hurt shu hui's feeling just because i'm testing and playing with music video.. i'm so sorry... didnt mean to hurt you...

dunno what's wrong with me... i'm an idiot!!
first it was bernice..
now is shu hui...
i even hurt my bf for no reason

*tears* ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'M A SPINELESS FREAK
i'm a lousy friend...

sorry for everything

sick

2005-11-25T20:16:00.000-08:00

i've fallen ill, down with a bad flu.. just before the polympics... sux isnt it? to get everything screw up all at once? well... polympics, i thought i could get to see bernice participating.. guess i was wrong.. hmm do u think i'm too harsh with my words? haha bet you have no idea wat kind of crap i have said.. bt doesn't seem it's for the best, because i keep getting nightmares ever since that day.. maybe because of conscience, i dunno.. silly isn't it? ?

well tat's besides the point.. busy busy busy.. going to really be drowned by badminton ... trainings now changed to tues thurs and fri at ang mo kio sec sch.. 7 to 10pm.. nxt week, monday wed fri, and sat, have polympics, yet to be confirm though... man my day sucks..

watched a hell alot of animations to release stress . shiok arrR!!!! bt now no mood for anything... i feel so drowsy and sick...

body is weakening.. my mind is weaker.. going to collaspe soon..

aw man... why now ?!

i cant get up on my feet anymore..i'm so tired that i went down on my knees a few times on my way home from sch today.. i'm so exhausted from so many stuffs... i am tired of feeling worried i am tired of feeling guilty i am tired of so many stuffs...

then again.. i'm unwell so i'm bullshitting

tmr gonna read more manga to relax...
weak me,

MicH

yeow!

2005-11-21T12:32:00.000-08:00

look at my corrupted/ decayed foot.. stupid blister... thank goodness i can still compete in my badminton training against NYP. it's a DRAW :D hahah~! did i tell u my fingers were slammed hard onto the toilet door by a friend??? Yeow! nasty man,

okok so my blog is being very boring and pathetic, i'll try to smile i promise.. =D

why,...

2005-11-21T12:23:00.000-08:00

it's been ages since i have last blog here..

well, things has gotten from bad to worse.. somehow or rather i just can't keep my mouth shut.. as a result i have hurt my love ones such as my family, my friends, u name it, i've already done it... wat the hell is wrong with me??? this sharp pain has return after for so long... it was so painful that i have to punch the wall again.. and again.. and again. i wanna yell out for help bt i believe it's pointless..

now i'm in the canteen stoning and blogging... just have too many things to think abt too many things to worry about,.. that i do not know where to start... i prayed asking god for mercy bt everyday life didnt seem to improve.. the whole world start to collaspe onto my head. u may think it's dramatic or i'm bullshitting around but it's pretty unbearable now..

now my love one has actually going to forsake christ.. the one who actually brought us together.. his faith is diminishing.. bt yet uncontrollable... i cant force him i'm trying to accept the fact
but the truth hurts

trying very hard to deal with it .. i dunno who i can turn to now..

aiyah in other words my life is pretty screwed up
i wish there is training today so tat i can torture myself to death bt sadly training is cancelled...

there's nth for me to do to release anger on
do i have to bring myself to smoke again? NO WAY i better not!
i guess suffer in silence and deal it all by myself ALONE.

why lord... why..

in misery
MicH

boreddd to tears

2005-11-16T12:16:00.000-08:00

yes finally i'm blogging

physical training was really tough last friday. .to the extend i'm too tired to do anything... hahha getting as lazy as ever, sleeping 12 hours everyday when possible... well well. going to have a friendly match on thurs. JIA YOU GIRLS ! :D Show them what ngee ann got! :D had a really bad blister on the toes.. haiz sian half..oh yea let me see what else ... not much to complain now, brain pretty dead . oh yea!! NO MAPLE ahhhhhhhhhh... no chance to play...

hahah! today no sch!! no sch = SLP.. !!! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

boring life boring life....
yawnzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

here i go again

2005-11-08T23:09:00.000-08:00

well well well i guess i have not blog for A PRETTY LONG TIME, sorry mannn

alot of things have been happening to the extend i just have no mood to complaining
my mind filled with nothing but "WaTever~~~"

to sum it up, school has started, badminton training from twice to thrice a week... homeworks rushing in like a HUGE WATERFALL..

oh yea, tmr i'm gonna celebrate with junsing his "advanced birthday"

gonna be reallll fun to plan that.. bt then again it's gonna make me wonder what's going to happen next year? hahaha ooooooo too soon too son ^^

oh yea, i started to play maple again... influence sia... now i'm level 31, WAssup!! spearman rox man!

alright alright no sense blog, will update in deeper details tmr onwards (if i have the mood of course)

in other words...... boring routine. every day.. every hour

except when i'm in jun sing's world
wahahha

the drug tat keeps me going --js

peace out!

MicH

PS: i'm so going to change that song.. i wonder where are all the decent music these days...

why..

2005-10-30T22:46:00.000-08:00

moody moody moody... no mood to say how's my day or wat....

bt of course i enjoy every moment with my dear :)

haiz, i wonder... why ppl love to judge ... why they love to find fault in everything i do... why cant they ever be satisfied with me..

nvm.. i guess...

as long jun sing and the lord is with me, i'll hang on...

jun sing, is my pillar of strength my happiness..

good bye

2005-10-28T22:41:00.000-07:00

have not blog for quite some time... was tired ,aka lazy... actually no lar, just lazy :D admit admit :X

well well.. erm thurs , i go with jun sing to buy notes (typical singaporean) haha, afterwards, we went window shopping in jurong east and watch movie "the legend of zorro" , do uknow i actually watch is TWICE?? oh my goodness... bt yea u should check it out. ...funny! i like the horse.. super attitude problem.. hahahha from part one until now.. still attitude problem.. well lets sum it up, i went to play pool and billard with jun sing..okok tio trashed bt i had tyco with me! wahahaha god bless!! too bad he is immune to my nonsense le.. hahaha now he should be busy having dinner with his dad.. wearing formal.. AW so sad! i'm at home slacking relaxing! wahahhahaa.... !!

okok today had training had a haircut... sia lar! tio frindge.. eee yer, kind of regret i look like a china doll!!!!!!!! roar!!!! okok i know yakkity yakkkkkk

overall it's a gd day.. sorry guys couldnt suffer with u during training... god bless ya? will suffer with u all nxt week

aw man!! 2 more days!! sch is going to start!! BORINGGGGGGGG

last but not least...

dearly beloved sony ericsson S700I

u were a great phone.. but why ur software so cocked up de....
and the loudspeaker blasted.. no more ringtone.. how to hear music...
saved u twice.. and now it's gone

okok iknow LAME :D

MicH

argh

2005-10-26T23:03:00.000-07:00

sleepy me, lazy to blog for the past two days, oh man!! i dunno whether i'm gaining muscles or fats.. this is starting to get scary... oh well okok iknow.. crap! ermmm

tuesday i had badminton training, wasnt that tough bt i had fun! i was acting like so drama to catch the shuttle.. bt in the end, things screwed up.. bt okok lar it was fun :) my badminton buddies wanna pull , drag me to watch "the wig" THANK GOD the movie wasnt shown in clementi, wa realli must praise god for that. lol! in the end , all of us watch the movie, duece bigalow "european gigolo" hahaha, i had to watch the same thing twice... worth watching la bt damnnnnnnn gross lor.. hahahah!!! oh yea, i played with sally dance games . it's really fun :D

well tts all for tuesday.

wednesday, my dear come to my house and entertain me,. hahah had movie marathon.. wanna go out to eat kfc, in the end it was raining, we had to call delivery, it sux lor, everything also dont have everything also cannot.. ROAR.. ! so expensive somemore, slaughtered my throat.. well not mine , actually is my dear's throat.. bt we had fun.. woooooo the spicy chicken is spicy!!!!! my tongue caught fire.. ! haha it's realli great for my guy to spend time with me today.. haha we end up playing maple ... gay game. dun even know why i bother to start. we watched soccer together too and watch "the guru" hahaha guru of sex. lol!!

sad he has to leave early.. so sorry for not spending much time with u.. tmr we will have hell alot of time!!!

dorothy , please take care of yourself, it's hard bt i know you can do it, stay strong! friends like me and david sure there for u to be your clown. even though it's damn dry lar *winks*

amen

MicH

conquer

2005-10-24T20:14:00.000-07:00

conquer conquer!!!

yeow

2005-10-24T19:59:00.000-07:00

ouch, nasty.. hit

april snow

2005-10-24T19:52:00.000-07:00

just came back from westmall, went out with my guy to watch april snow.. ok lar typical korean show, the story line is pretty stupid . bt the scenes compensate it.. haha winter on spring.. and hmmm they practically cry and grieve over their jerk husband and wife for cheating on them for the first one hour.. lol!! hmmm the music is pretty touching too... they should have done something which is touching , like run after the girl in the rain or snow.. then fall down. or maybe the girl write down wat they did everyday in a journal on a piece of paper and fold it into hearts to the guy.. or play some nice music to the person on how they feel or smth... instead of just having an affair just because their spouse have an affair with each other.. .hmm

okok i know C.R.A.P haha let's talk wat happens after the movie, we ate swensons on a RAINY DAY..! okok my bad my bad i want to have something sweet in my mouth . we listen to alot of mp3 songs nonstop throughout our "snack" and i have to keep guessing the songs, hahaha ! was pretty fun guessing :) hmm wat else did we do? oh yea! my S700I is now onli worth 300 dollars!!! ROAR my heart pain sia... bt then again, it's the longest phone with so far..

and now my guy make me addicted to this song zhi jue by jeff chang, hope you all like it . i just like the music, i still have no idea what it means, anyway take care peeps!

tmr badminton training.. OH NO!

MicH

backhome

2005-10-23T18:40:00.000-07:00

oh man, cant slp last night, got badly beaten by mosquitoes.. terrible terrible, was so sleepy until i didnt go to church (sorry lord) :( then erm wat else.... oh yea nic and fred actually wanna find me in church bt of course i was missing lar cus i'm at home mah.... they all ar.. lol jokers.. anyway i still hang out with them after much thinking and pondering... went to play arcade.. then fred meet up with his gf.. awwwwwwwwww :X then we went all the way to bukit timah to play pool. man " pool factor" sux!! so terrible the things.. bleahxz.. oh yea! alvin seng joined us after settling his stuffs with the karanguni..

after that we had lunch at beauty world... duck rice, yum yum,.... poor fred's gf have to wait damn long for her char kway teow, then we were saying that her char kway teow goes around the world after 80 days then come here in singapore.. lol!! after our super late lunch, we went to play billard in a much better place!! wow pretty on form for me , i at least can hit some balls in. hahahahha :D and now i'm home blogging.. arghhhh i dont want to play maple.... ta hannnnnnn ta hannnnnnnn *endure*

maple is evilllllllll

You're My Everything Santa Esmeralda lyrics

2005-10-22T23:58:00.000-07:00

You're My Everything Santa Esmeralda lyrics
Artist: Santa EsmeraldaAlbum: Other Songs LyricsTitle: You're My Everything

Na na na na ...
You're my everything
The sun that shines above you makes the blue bird sing
The stars that twinkle way up in the sky
Tell me I'm in love,
when I kiss your lips
I feel the rolling thunder to my finger tips
And all the while my head in a spin
Deep with in I'm in love

Chorus

You're my everything
and nothing Really matters but the love you bring
You're my everything
To see you in the morning with those big brown eyes
You're my everything
Forever and the day I need you close to me
You're my everything
You never have to worry never fear
For I am near

You're my everything
I live upon the land and see the sky above
I'll swim within oceans sweet and warm
There's no storm my love

(chorus) blah blah blah :X

uneasy

2005-10-22T23:50:00.000-07:00

feeling really weird today now.. feel very insercure whenever he is not around.. is that the feeling of being in love?? i never feel this way before.. ok this sounds disgusting lar bleahx, i cannot believe i saying such mushy stuffs *shrugs*... but i dono why i have this fear in my mind.. maybe i'm afraid of being hurt .. i heard that it is a terrible feeling.. i used to tell my mom easy come easy go..
bt now i know one thing, my mom is right.. - it aint easy..

love is seriously work in mysterious ways (for me i guess)

M.A.D forever! i cant believe i'm so deeply involved now... i wish this weird, mysterious, yet sweet, warm feeling wont fade ever! :)

thank you lord for everything, and bringing the sweetest guy david to my life :) i've never been happy for so long.. thank you for letting me feel love :)
amen

lol

2005-10-22T21:42:00.000-07:00

tts a pretty.. long bill imust say, heh heh (crystal jade)

sick

2005-10-22T21:09:00.000-07:00

had badminton training last fri, was doing some badminton admin stuffs... poor wei yu, sprained her ankle, haiz first it was ying qi , now is her, i feel really sad, although i'm not the one whose leg is being sprained.. oh yea! our old member ivy has finally came~! was really glad because we could get all the help we can get :D still very zai ! bt dono why she says she is rusty.. hmm then i'm worse sia, work so hard and my badminton still like crap lol! ook anyway , after badminton n my guy and i went to crystal jade for lunch :D bt it's not exactly lunch lar, cos we waited for dorothy to join us .. so we played 9 ball pool. WAh I DAMN tyco lor!! he sees until he vomited blood... cos i keep shooting the 9 ball in with other number balls... was really happy to win him actually because he is damn pro~! :X finally dorothy came like around 5 plus.. so we actually going to have our dinner instead of lunch.... aww so sad! no XIAO LONG BAO for dorothy~!! she came all the way from lavender just to go to crystal jade to eat that... tsk tsk... Anyway, we eat alot alot alot! not as much as the previous time bt still alot!!

we had like, duck chicken congee, beef congee, century egg congee, oh yar! our egg tart also out of stock.. sad sad :( okok erm anyway, also had deep fried ma pou tou fu.... scalding hot! erm had char siew pastry, had carrot cake (sia lar got cheated) then had some dian xin, bt i dono wat is it called.. and dorothy had her mango pudding... enjoyed ourselves to the fullest!! :D

then david and i go back to cck lot one, because we are suppose to have dinner with our friends at 8++ bt they were late so we had dinner at 9 ++ we reached there at 7++ so we end up playing billard.. wah i see until my eye pain, i dono how my bf handle it.. oh ya! i bump into my sec sch friend karen and her boyfriend :D small small world!! :D after that we met up with our friend and from eating kopitiam, we had some ramadan party meal in long john silver~! was pretty fun bt i was too tired to even talk so i was realli quiet... and thats all for friday

saturday.. which is practially today i didnt do much, was soooooo tired that i slp until i got up at around 7pm.. i repeat, 7pm....!! i onli had 4 slices of bread... bleahxz no appeitite to eat... now blogging as usual and watching some animations and downloading them... tmr is sunday gotta go church.. hopei have the energy..

i will do my best in badminton!!! persevere!!

oh yea! congrats sally of being the new vice captain! :D

lol

2005-10-20T21:24:00.000-07:00

the animation, the manga i was so addicted too..nt because there is perverted thing inside bt... the story is unique and touching.. (to me la) :D

pai seh

2005-10-20T17:08:00.000-07:00

pai seh pai seh... was reading ichigo 100% manga volume 8. my gosh!! nice ending! not as bad as i thought. . which they had more conversation though... two thumbs up man~! well i had badminton wed's morning in bukit gombak stadium from 8am to 10am, then took a taxi to rush over to hougang sports hall and played badminton from 1030 to 1pm plus... aiyoh yoh.... tiring nia~!! then we went to makan chicken rice~!! bt not as nice as i thought though.,... disaapointing siaaa.. anyway it was realli fun hanging out with the team, for the first time the team really bonded compared to last year.. no team spirit at all.!! oh yea, when i was about to go back, i changed my mind, and i went to watch 40 year old virgin.. aiyoh~ they still dont believe i'm already reaching 20 lor~~~~ tsk tsk, ok lar the show is not bad.. quite cheesy..

okie gonna blog more later , movie marathon today~! did i tell u that my bf is back?! wah hoo!!!! my entertainment is back liaooo~~! sian no more!! :D

thanks

2005-10-18T21:10:00.000-07:00

a BIG thank you to andrew and maggie who notice the pain i'm feeling throughout the days... it means alot :) i'll try to think positive again. and of course.. GIve me a MTH! i will trash her!! bt i quite scare scare lol ! :X

fallen

2005-10-18T15:30:00.000-07:00

man today sux, totally not on form to be playing games. my badminton totally screw up, i wonder why everybody is so fit except me? i tried hard too.. bt i feel i'm from bad to worse..sigh lost my confidence in playing . suddenly i wasnt looking forward to anything in particular .. i mean, i slp so much, how can i be so exhausted? i just dont get it. keep releasing stress onto pool game alone.. initially wanna go out and watch movie on my own, bt i guess i'm a lil lazy to do that either.. i feel like i'm being shot in the head alot of times... i'm being defeated, trashed.. i must work harder!! bt how.. can't figure it out.. sigh

I tried so hard not wanting to give up.. maybe i have to face the fact that i just sux at everything -.-"

MicH

wadever

2005-10-17T19:41:00.000-07:00

bored bored bored bored bored...
went to the dentist with my mom and bro.. bro is a pain in the neck, keep struggling... ok lameee zzz ahhhh very tireddddddd, sleep so much and still so exhausted... argh ~! whats wrong with me lately.... i feel so sickly...

shortest blog ever.. off to bed Zzz

A dull life...

MicH

haiz

2005-10-16T19:43:00.000-07:00

been two days and he has now called... he said it was expensive.. i guess tts explainable.. hmmm oh well, been in a bad shape lately, keep playing badminton nonstop... to worn myself out. the after effect ? cant stop sleeping. haiyoh, worse than a PIG.. worse than my pet harley.. hahahah anyway.. well nth much to mention this time, eat slp eat slp.. the end.. lol

the phone bill which i called from indonesia to singapore call cost 50 dollars plus.. hmm

aiyah talking crap again'! not enough nutrition into my head... i'm so so so so so so so so BOREDDD come back quickly arrrrrrrrr~!! zzzzzzz

watever

2005-10-15T23:07:00.000-07:00

after apologising to my mom , it seems that the matters are just getting from bad to worse.. what have i done this time?? maybe she is too sick of me saying sorry all the time and never learn. ... i dunno what is wrong lately.. maybe i'm selfish, nv spare for her thoughts, then what about my thoughts? who is going to care for me?? human rights, SHEESH seriously to hell with pride!! how low u want me to be now? grovel and ppl's feet? when i dont fight back, i become a spineless worm, when i fight back on what is right, it just makes matters worse, WHY WHY WHY!! wat do u all want me to do?? bang myhead against the wall? lick ur shoes?? stop treating me like a door mat!!~ sometimes i really wish i'm off dead..

nth i do is right,.. wats the point..

haiz

2005-10-15T22:58:00.000-07:00

had badminton game today, played quite ok today, then nth much we went to cck lot one for dinner.. haha shortest message ever!!

feeling rather moody lately... cus i realise i've been rather an idiot recently... although nobody feels tt way.. no wonder there is a saying , "i'm my worst enermy"

had a gd talk with the gang, zhi yi, jackson and ling er, after dinner... talk alot abt music, man got me very high.. inspired to play again... although it's going to be tough. well we'll see ,theres badminton again tmr , dunno whether i should go...

suddenly, thinking of the past makes me miss .......

haha talking crap again tts all for now :)

stone stone stone

will there be a badminton chalet over night?? hmmmm *ponder*

embarrasing

2005-10-14T23:55:00.000-07:00

omg, i'm so embarrassed, spill the bottle of ice lemon tea onto fred's gf on our first meeting, didnt mean it though, the stupid mouse lar, stupid sakae sushi act so high tech, the mouse so in the way, wonder why they need waitor for wat sia...

anyway, had a great time.. manage to burn the cds for dorothy to watch animation for a mth, then erm, wat else ar, oh yea, went to meet up with fred, his gf joanna, dorothy, nicholas and i

like family reunion, we go to sakae sushio for dinner, poor dorothy has to eat more, bt ok lar nicholas treat her 10 dollars of sakae sushi, should be gd :) oh yea, wat else, we hang out in jurong point , arcade walk abt... of course feel quite bright, aiyoh they so loving, dono whether to fee goosebumps or to feel happy for them, bt of course both lar.. then erm. fred sent his gf home (aw so romantic) , dorothy went home cos she is sleepy.. (poor thing, bt glad she join us) and nic and i?? slack around at coffee bean... fred join us at the later time.. we hang out and chat until 11 plus.. and i just reach home, and blogging now.. heh heh~

ho seh arr, best "family"gathering ever!! :D

it'll be great if jun sing was here.. haiz he go thailand rafting and cycling -.-"

MicH

miss u alot

2005-10-13T19:12:00.000-07:00

oh yea, last but not least a message to chua jun sing~

dear gd luck on ur journey to thailand. enjoy yourself and be home in one piece okok? muahahhaah miss ya~

MicH

tired

2005-10-13T18:55:00.000-07:00

hahaha was tired to blog yesterday.. so i better blog now or else i'm going to be exhausted...

anyway, yesterday SUGOI!! best lunch ever! had crystal jade with junsing ... whoa alot of dian xin (did i spell correctly?) eat our usual congee, chicken duck congee, yummmm , follow by siew mai, xiao long bao, egg tart~ and more more more....! wasted dont have deep fried mee pok tou fu.. hmm oh yea, eat the char siew bun too.. fantastic man~~ okok enough abt food... erm we both went to play badminton at HOUGANG, sia lar so farr T_T was till so full, until we didnt really play much, man my badminton sux, blister on both of my toes, i had blue black onto both of my knees.. dunno whether can go for training on friday.. sad case nia...

today nothing much happen, the usual, jun sing his friend boon keat and i went to watch movie duece bigalow. .damn gay lor!! waahahhahaha not as interesting as i thought bt gd enough :D haha u watch then u will know... it's damn lame, and i didnt know it was M18 show.. haha freddy, cham liao lar u, cannot watch.. download from internet bah.. lol anyway, oh yea we went to play pool, i bump into my friend kendrick at the sushi restuarant, and junsing played billard with his friend aaron who is suppose to watch movie and he pang seh his friends temperary...

my gentleman jun sing and i went to have dinner.. sia lar!! stupid chicken rice stall just for 4.50 for the food... wah piang.... expensive!! roarrrrrrr

anyway tts all for now,

2005-10-11T21:50:00.000-07:00

heart shape mac spicy double?? haha~~! M.A.D ptd ltd..

what have i done

2005-10-11T20:40:00.000-07:00

the cycle repeats, i was once again badly affected by the things happen today, especially today..

morning, during training , my gd buddy was in pain.. her knee was injured once again.. and she was yelling and crying in pain.. i cant do anything but watch her and lend her my hand .. to let her endure the pain... to see her in such a condition makes me feel so badly traumatised and lost..

today i fell onto my knees, cos of catching and i really slide onto the ground badly... roar..

went to holland v burger king, alot of things clouded my mind, suddenly i doubt my role as captain ... i suddenly doubt my playing to win games... i feel so badly swallowed..... yawnnzz

oh yea i do have fun playing badminton with jun sing's niece and nephews.....

guess what, as i think of wat happen today in the car on the way home.. i started to tear badly.. tears flowing down my cheeks and i couldnt control it... and i hate to be cornered and being question.. i hate to be misunderstood, i hate when ppl sees me as someone who i am totally not..

i cant control my mind anymore

maybe i'm just tired... dunno man,
i wish i have someone who could stab me in the heart using the knife...

baboons

2005-10-10T19:05:00.000-07:00

i told u we tio free labourrrrrr abused arrrrrrr -.-""

feast dAy

2005-10-10T19:03:00.000-07:00

feast dayyyyyyyy look at da ants lol

yippy!

2005-10-10T18:53:00.000-07:00

wah hoo~!!! yea i was exhausted to the extend i no energy to blog . well, nth happen much yesterday (sunday) just go to church for feast day, and in the end , we end up blowing balloons, T_T~ child labour... abused... roar~! bt fred, alvin seng, nic and i do feel gd helping out...:D well well, we went to watch movie "the myth" very funny~! bt the storyline sux lar. thats all for sunday,

monday blues no more! monday rox! well for this monday onli... because my dear pampered me the whole day.. being a prince and come over to my house to accopmany me..and i was really surprise tt he really bought for me one racquet.. tats one which i'm going to cherish alot alot alot.. thanks again jun sing~! *hugs*~! i'm so deeply touched, and no words to describe how i feel now... oh yea we had a lil tea break at macs, and we actually saw one guy who goes to other ppl's table to eat their left overs... ewwww gross bt pitiful, if he is pleasant looking, i would have bought something, bt the sad thing is , he looks pretty violent... -.-" well tts over anyway,

today we went to k pool in jurong east.. man i'm TYCO!! he's tyco too lor bt of course more skillful, had a really great time~!! he's da best! :) okie and here i am at home,, dinner time

itadakimas!

MicH

JS is Da best~!

wahhhhhhhhh

2005-10-08T23:15:00.000-07:00

look at the mess we make.. , ghenkis khan buffet rox man~!!! it take me and my guy to heaven.~~~ *floats*